when cooker goes on strike....

"Cooker" aka me is on strike indefinitely coz it's actually pretty tiring. My initial plan was to have dinner with small cow or just go home makan instant noodles and call it a night. Coz I really need to catch up on my sleep.

Manatau....

The out of ordinary event started during lunch when Mr Married called to inform he is around the neighbourhood and wanna buy me lunch. It's out of ordinary coz I've been eating in for so long, I dun really go out for lunch anymore :D

Next, Zia (a long time blogger friend... we go waaaaaayyy back in 2002 :D) ding dong ding dong (whatsapp) me to let me know she is in town and hope to meet and catch up. We were reminiscing the crazy times we had during her last visit (abt 7yrs back) and how she misses my jeruk mangga. So I told her I need to scout around for mango trees to steal some mangoes to do it for her (afterall, stolen fruits always taste better ma :D) we were joking and laughing like siao charboh. And made plans to meet up later last night to yumchar.

Then the next even happened just before I clocked out. Lady boss called to tell me that she was stuck in a jam and Sandy the Dog needs to clear her bladder soon if not she will have accident in the office. After getting detailed instructions from her, I realized I have no confident in executing the task well coz Sandy is really old and she can't cross the road properly anymore and I have to carry her across the main road to the housing area for her to do her business. Me? Carry dog? Cannot la. Play can la. Scratch can la. Belly rub can la. Carry, no la. So I enlisted MyColleagueIsSoOneKind to help and my task were to coax Sandy to pee like "Sandy... Jui jui lor... Shhhhhh.... Shhhhh.... Sandy.... Jui jui.... Shhhh.... Shhhhh" :p Anyways, the task was completed not long later coz Sandy really really needed to go. :D

On the way back to the office, we passed by a fruits shop and saw a lot of green mangoes. Bought some only I stupidly asked if it's sour. Nope, it's not. Then decided to pop by at the supermarket on the way home to get soy sauce and lime (improvise coz if it's sour mango, no need lime). After buying all these, I jammed all the way back only remember that the minimart near my house sells unripe mangoes! So I went over and got some. Came home immediately went on the task of crushing the cili padi with a fork only to remember I have pestle and mortar thingie. So I took the pestle to pounce on the cili quickly (rushing for time coz Small Cow and Sam-"I am not a LaLa"-son was on the way over to fetch me) and then.... Fucking accident happened!! The bloody cili padi juice splashed on my face and hand AND Sam-"I am not a LaLa"-son have to call me during the accident to tell me they were leaving MV alre and i was pretty rude to him over the phone plus the line was breaking up, i didnt really have the mood to be courteous :P. Fucking hell, the cili juice damn pedas lor!! I think I am disfigured alre *exegerating* So I quickly made the jeruk, put in a container and chill in the fridge. Planning to come home after dinner to collect the jeruk and meet ZiaHoay later :) Quickly went to take a quick shower to get rid of the cili sting.

Small cow and Sam came not long later. As usual, I am a fickle minded person. Suggested another location for dinner and we went to Kepong for Ka Ka BKT. Seriously very good!! :D towards the end of the dinner, Small Cow's friend came over to exchange car with her coz she wanted to modify more stuffs on her car. Immediately after we enter his car, we felt damn LaLa-fied wei! LOL!! Samson kept on muttering that he is not a LaLa. and he was lamenting how stressed he was sitting in the car coz he didnt know how to explain to ppl how un-lala he actually is. we went to pump petrol on that lala car and Sam asked Small Cow to tell the attendant that the car is not ours, we are not lala :P ya, he is pretty "fai" =.=" but funny. but i wont wanna hang out with him too often la... later i vomit blood :p And the music in the car also damn lala lor!! We laughed all the way back to his condo and before he left the car, I shouted "Bye! LaLa Chew!!" LOL. He was really embarrassed!! Hehehhehehe.

On the way back, small cow offer to bring me home to collect the jeruk mang to bring to MV to meet Zia coz i was really really tired by then. and that lala viva is really really stable lor! she drove at 140kmh and i didnt feel a thing!!! :D

Met Zia briefly and she reminded me of the crazy stuffs that i dragged her to do the last time she was here :P i brought her to go Ghost hunting with Ifer and we scare ourselves shitless when we saw something flew pass and we really thought it was a ghost but see see, it's just a bat =.=" and how we tried to go up the hill in murphy and murphy dont have much power and i say "Ok! everyone lean forward and lift your butts!" - coz my illogical mind really think that will help murphy to move forward :P after hugging and laughing for awhile, i told her i better get going as small cow was waiting in the car for me and i was really really really tired. i hope to see her again soon la :D I told her to lemme know way way in advance the next time she plan to fly over here coz i will need to scout around for mango trees to steal mangoes :D our plan is, she climb the tree coz as she phrase it: "I am still very tall! i can help to climb and steal mangoes!" and i will be shaking the tree trunks to shake the fruits down :P

Back in the car, i was replaying what Zia reminded me to Small Cow and i realized that i am really really really crazy and sampat when i have the right kaki to sampat with. when i am alone, i am a boring person. no doubt i have a lot of crazy ideas, but to find the "victims" to do crazy stunts with is damn hard lor :D

i really missed those good old days when i was younger and crazier. i also miss ifer coz she is one person who will always indulge in my crazy stints :D every time we suggest a crazy stint, we will definitely act on it. most of the time halfway thru the stint, we will be asking ourselves, "What the fuck are we doing here???" :p

Alas, things always happens for a reason. Am moving on :D

After sending the jeruk mang to Zia, we went back, smoked a bit and talked more and look at the lala car even more.... u wanna knw how wrong is the car? it's own by a straight guy, but it's full of Hello Kitty stickers!!! =.="" and a lot of bling blings and blink blinks! As Sam said, Christmas has come early! LOL!

When we were in the car, i felt the urge / compelled to do something unlalafying just to prove that i m not a lala as well. lol. i know how sam feel. and i am very sure small cow feels the same but she has no choice. lol.

when i went up the apt, i looked at the kitchen sink and i couldnt take it and washed up the stuffs that i didnt manage to wash after i did the jeruk mang. bathe. and when my head hit the pillow, i slept immediately. that was how tired i was.

i guess there is no point to plan to sleep early coz it never happens!! :P

Sibeh Kancheong Song......

....i've finally found the title of the song!! :D

William Tell Overture



Let's rewind back to Ifer days aka high on drugs days :D Everytime (which is almost all the time) we are late for appointment and super kancheong and high on ice, we will be humming this song to make ourselves even more kancheong.:D and then our heart will palpitate even faster and ended up nervously laughing over it :D

Small Cow and Minger also kena this 'disease' ;-) Everytime they kancheong that time, this song will be playing in their mind. and MOST of the time it happens when we are running late for appointments/work ;)

We always wonder what is the title of the song. And i've finally found it last night whilst watching Secret Diary of a Call Girl Season 4. One of the sex scene played this song and since i turned on the subtitle, i finally saw the title!! yay for me! :D

Anyway, when i was looking for the vid on youtube, i found another kancheong song that Ifer and I used to use for a bit... but not much la... coz it's more 'grandous' than kancheong :D here it is:

Wagner, The ride of the Valkyries


right? more 'grandous' or kua cheong than kancheong right?? :D

P/S: here are some funny comments i saw from the William Tell Overture vid ;)

DON'T LISTEN TO THIS WHILE DRIVING
michaeltansini 1 month ago 94

-takes two coconuts and bangs them together-
-pretends to gallop on a horse-
Dreamer00 2 weeks ago 48

I PLAY THIS WHILE HAVING SEX!
...thank god its only 3mins long.
...twice is more than enough!
HuskyColeman 6 hours ago

Ah, so amazing! I just did the dishes. Probably could have done them in half the time if I had this on ^_^.
3Z3K13L08 5 days ago

Escape (The Pina Colada Song) by Rupert Holmes


I was tired of my lady, we'd been together too long.
Like a worn-out recording, of a favorite song.
So while she lay there sleeping, I read the paper in bed.
And in the personals column, there was this letter I read:

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
I'm the lady you've looked for, write to me, and escape."

I didn't think about my lady, I know that sounds kind of mean.
But me and my old lady, had fallen into the same old dull routine.
So I wrote to the paper, took out a personal ad.
And though I'm nobody's poet, I thought it wasn't half-bad.

"Yes, I like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne.
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon, and cut through all this red tape.
At a bar called O'Malley's, where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes, then she walked in the place.
I knew her smile in an instant, I knew the curve of her face.
It was my own lovely lady, and she said, "Oh, it's you."
And we laughed for a moment, and I said, "I never knew"..

"That you liked Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

Love this catchy cute song. But it's so unrealistic. I bet this song is written by a guy (lazy to do research, assuming it IS written by a guy)! I mean like harlow?? In real life hor, when this thing happened, the 1st thing a normal female will say when she sees her guy at the restaurant will be: "WTF are you doing here?" and then look around sheepishly hoping that her secret escape lover will not show up. No such thing as laughed together lor.... that's just a fairy tale.

Nevertheless, it's still a catchy cute song that reminds me of my monthly trip to Singapore with my dad, grandparents and brother when i was much much much younger coz this song was always playing on the 'adult' radio station (90.5FM) :D

ooohhh.... i just remember another funny not so childhood memory :D My brother introduce Kopi Kat Klan (it's a tape full of funny sketches by the talented Siva Choy and gang) to us so we went to our favourite hangout place, Holland Village, to get the cassette (ya, damn old school, right?) and our monthly dose of secondhand books from EMF Bookstore. We (My dad, bro and Karen Jiejie) excitedly, put the cassette into the player the moment we went into the car and listen.... it was too much and too funny to the extend that my dad gotta stop driving just to listen and laugh!!! :D Here's some gems that i found on youtube:

Why U So Like Dat by Kopi Kat Klan



The Debate



Kopi Kat Klan - DJ "Smiley Face" De Souza



R-Rated Movies



The Tunnel



Night Training


Ok, that's all i can find for Kopi Kat Klan...oh oh... here's one from Talking Cock

Unchained Melody Hokkien Version


:D :D :D :D :D

went over to Mudder's place last nite for dinner :D. It all started with me not seriously dengan tak tau malu-nya invited myself over to Mudder's place for dinner via Facebook :D i told her i wanted to eat sambal belacan + timun + nasi putih* (one of the best combination ever!!). That was around 6something. then i continue working clearing the darn paperworks (still got damn alot! one huge stack just came in today! ~~~>.<~~~), then at around 8ish, i suddenly received an sms from Fudder:

Dinner ready at mudder's resort.

i was like.... wtf?? serious ah??? but at the same time super excited la.... i mean, wei, homecooked food leh.... how not to get excited???

So dengan rakus-nya, i dropped everything.... literally. i didnt even tidy up my desk! :D and i shoot all the way from Kota Kemuning to Kota Damansara - 120km/h all the way :D ya, food makes me that excited!! :D got lost a little at Mudder's taman coz i forgotten a turn :D but i reached her place in due time la! mudder cooked curry ikan masin (yumz!) and i had the gravy with rice with sambal belacan (tarak timun) and keropok ikan :D nice!! :D

After eating, we went upstairs to pull Miao (who is sick and currently having a fantastic Macy Gray's voice - sexy-nya! :P), down to entertain me :P we talked some and tried to convince Miao to leave the house with us to have some Froyo (Fudder's idea). But she just didnt want coz she is really sick... poor miao!

Went to Sunway Giza to have my froyo and i was a super duper happy cow! :D but too bad la, last nite's selections not that great. but still got what i like la :D

Left Kota Damansara not long later and went over to Minger's place to chat and chat :D

*i know as a chinese, this is not something that we will like (the sambal belacan + timun + nasi putih). but i dont think we were brought up in a very chinese environment :D popo's cooking has always been more malay / peranakan style. i dont quite remember eating much chinese style food when i was growing up with her :D the most chinese food by popo should be 'chu keok cho - pork leg vinegar' and 'tong choy chu yuk - erm... steamed minced pork with tong choy (preserved vege)' :D the rest of her food are really non chinese :D i remember i was trained to tumbuk sambal belacan when i was 11yrs old.... damn tiring lor! tumbuk tumbuk tumbuk but the onion and chili wont hancur one! :P Sambal belacan is a staple condiment on our dining table every single meal. popo used to be so perfectionist that she insist we tumbuk the sambal freshly before every meal (ok, maybe not perfectionist la.... i think she just wanted to train us :D), but it's all good la... coz i actually love it :D sambal belacan with freshly cut cucumber and sometimes deep fried tofu and steaming hot rice.... *smacks lips* makes me wish to go home tonite to start tumbuk-ing! :D ok... the more i think about it, the more i wish to cook alre =.=" see this weekend if i have the mood or not la :D

Minger and i talked about our food tradition at popo's place last night and ya we both agreed our eating taste is not every chinese. we eat our food more 重口味 (heavy tastebud), everyday sure got curry or rendang or sayur lodeh one :D i dont remember having any 清淡 (light / simple) dishes when we were growing up :D

alamak... my thoughts wander too far alre... i suddenly teringat how popo used to mix a big bowl of steaming hot rice with butter and bovril and feel all of us karchengs at the garden :D i miss it! i think i will go get myself some bovril this weekend :D fuck the red meat allergies! i am gonna 以毒攻毒 (fight poison with poison!) :D

p/s: why am i using so much chinese words ah? i also dunno leh... just feel like it :D some more i cheat one! have to say it out to my colleague what i want then she type it in msn for me to cut and paste :D wat a super fail chinese i am!! :D

i m bursting with glee now and yet i am feeling a tad guilty for the source of gleefulness. i need my bitching buddies!!! :D

i miss ifer a lot. i've been thinking about her lately. even sent her a message via facebook. but i m very sure she will not reply at all. it was raining heavily yesterday and my mind was brought back to the college days. how silly we were playing under the rain trying to get sick coz we didnt study for our calculus test the next day and we knew we were doomed :P so we came up with a silly idea. let's get sick. let's play under the rain! so she changed into her bikini and i wore my nightie and we sat at the carpark and talk and laughed at our silliness :D. we even walked the whole apartment area with ppl whistling at us or looking at us weirdly :D then she needed to get cigarettes and we walked to the nearby 24hr shop to buy. we knew the uncle well and on the way there, we were giggling and wondering wat's the uncle's reaction gonna be. but he was very cool about it. as if like it's normal for 2 crazy girls to be soaked wet in nighties and bikini walking into his shop at 4am in the morning getting cigarettes :D :D :D :D then there's another time where minger and ifer suddenly wish to eat American moist chocolate cake from Baker's Cottage - at 8am in the morning. We were hanging out the whole night at our balcony talking nonsense and drinking beer and singing songs (yes, we were really a nuisance then) until 7am so that we can have our favourite wantan mee :D after breakfast, they needed desserts and Baker's Cottage was opened already. And somehow, in our crazy mindset, in order to buy a cake, we needed a birthday person. So we started to think, whose bday was around the corner? and we realized Juju's bday was 2 weeks away. So we bought the cake, went home all giggly at our silliness, knocked on Juju's door and wake her and Babi up and forced Juju to blow the candles. You should see their tulan and yet cant show tulan-ness face :D after Juju blow the candles, we shoo them back to sleep so that Minger and Ifer can eat the cake :D looking back, i seriously think we have really amazing and patience housemates :D coz if anyone did that to me, i will just smash the bloody cake at their face and go back to sleep :P so yea.... i miss ifer. we really had a lot of funny childish time together. :(

i am waiting for obelix, the ex that got away, to come online :D he is the next best bitching buddy :D just called him, he is busy today. ask to me to keep it till tomorrow and we will bitch all i want :D

small cow is currently unavailable. i think she is having her down time now. so ya.....

minger lagi unavailable. she has bosses from hell!!

hmm... that was really jon-ifer-jon i saw the other day.... been 5-6yrs since i last saw him :)

i do missed my drug addict days sometimes. the bonding of highness we had was pretty entertaining....

i think that old man is right. i m really a free spirit.. i am attracted to anything that makes me laugh and non binding.... :D

on a slightly more serious note, i m gonna lose my free time for the next few weeks alre *sobs* why? coz another invoicing staff left again. and i m suppose to help out to generate invoice. fuckity fuck =.=" told the lady boss i can only start helping when my monthly reports to the oh so many customers is done.

but sometimes i feel like the bosses are really taking me for granted. this time round, they just commanded me to do it. not even asking me to help. i really need to negotiate my pay with them soon la!

jiwang....

.... was as usual driving to work and "Complicated" by Avril Lavigne came on again. The last time i thought of him was almost 2 yrs ago. I dont know why did he suddenly came into my mind again. i think i seriously need a closure. how is he doing? is he still on ice? is he married? did he still tried to look for me after i moved out? did he tried calling me (i've since changed phone numbers numerous times)?

chain reaction.

i suddenly decided to search for my ex colleagues in Singapore on FB. 1st, i found 3 of them and then from their friends list, i found more (ya ya, i know, that's how FB works). the thing is, this exercise sure brought back loads of memories. happy, angry, disappointment, but most of all, it's the fun we had together as a team.

i remember we have activities every month. coz we had this really good team leader who will make sure that there are activities planned on our off days. coz our off days are usually on weekdays.

going thru all those pictures, i am amazed how some doesnt aged at all, how some aged so much that i cant recognize... even the names sounds familiar to me, but i dont really recall them. then i saw the team leader's nieces and nephews. omg! they all look so old now! i remember them as really fun kids that we used to entertain when we were all at some holiday chalet :D

those were the good old days. and honestly, seeing some of the names, i realized how bad my memory is. very very bad.

and also realized how much i've changed. :O

I was listening to Can't Hurry Love - Phil Collins last night and i thought of Ifer. It was circa 2004 when we made a trip to Cherating. it was an impromptu trip. we didnt book any hotel rooms nor did we have much cash. we just decided to pack up and go. and the whole trip, she was singing:

"....say love dont come easy..."

over and over and over again. we couldnt recall what song was it and it was pretty annoying coz we were trying to recall the title of the song and the whole song.... it sounds so familiar and yet we cannot recall what song was it.

she just told me that it's frequently played in Mix.FM

so, for that whole weekend, we kept on trying to think but we just cannot. then i got fed up and called up Mix.FM asking her (the DJ) by humming it out to her. and she also find it familiar... but dunno what song was it.... then about 30mins later, the song was played! i guess the DJ remembered what song was it! :D

but it was really funny how we tried our best trying to recall the song title :D

p/s: yes, that was the weekend that i really got into drugs

p/p/s: yes, that was the weekend Murphy got into an accident :P

Updates with pic!

contrary to what some of you believe, no, the lack of updates is not because i been kidnapped by that Psychotic Ex BF.

anyways, so much to blog about! :D Went to watch West Side Story on Saturday. It was an atas event, altho they didnt serve champagne (disappointed!) Anyway, being the kiasu us, we reached there super early. so early until the matinee show havent even end =.=" then that silly LM suggested we go to PWTC to look see look see the dunno what beauty fair. we went there, it was damn empty... only to realized that the fair is actually at KLCC =.=" and since we have already parked the car, it's stupid to immediately leave coz we still have to pay the RM3.00 parking anyways. So we like so hai like that, went to the lobby and sat at the sofa and camwhore a bit. smoked a stick of ciggie, went to the toilet and then head back to Istana Budaya.

we were the 1st one to collect the ticket from the BMW counter. We each got a door gift containing a leather bound note pad, an original CD and program book :D They catered the food from Westin KL. Presentation wise nice la... but the taste, so so only. But we were damn full by the time we went down to watch the musical :D

RM 500.00 tix at a discounted price of RM338.00, FOC CD and Program Book at the retail price of RM80.00 is a great deal! :D

Some potato burger thingie (not nice) and honey glazed drummets (damn nice but super hard to eat when we need to pretend to be atas) these are the only food pic i took coz after that i kept the camera in the bag and too malas to take it out :D

The musical is really really impressive. I love the way they dance! So full of energy! I especially love the Dance at the gym scene and also the part where everyone came out and sang 3 different songs (i forgotten the scene - but i think it's the second half). It's damn hard to actually sing a song when there are 2 other groups of ppl singing other songs lor :D And Maria is really really pretty :D Drank too much drink during the cocktail session. so when the interval started, i rushed out to the toilet... thank goodness i rushed. coz when i came out from the toilet, the queue was damn long! :D was tempted to go back to the cocktail area to grab some drinks and snacks, but cannot la... later wanna pee how? :D

After the musical, we headed to PBD to look for the humble chef... but alas! he aint around :( We then headed over to Ronnie's place for his ROM party. But when we reach there, everyone left alre. too some courtesy snacks and catch up with Ronnie a bit and then balik. By the time we reach home it was alre 2ish 3.

Next morning, LM, Ah See and i went over to Sg. Buloh for the awesome dim sum. i was super hungry and whacked damn a lot :D actually, whacked too much la.. until we needed to go to TCM to walk walk abit to digest. after walking and stonning a bit, LM sent me home. Slept a bit then woke up to watch some dvd and then went out supper with the small cow.

and that, my kawan kawan, is why i was so busy over the weekend.

Oh oh... i found out i havent been updating a lot of pictures that i've taken eons ago. :P (mostly food tho)

Sometime in February, i've experimented in frying prawns and apparently the small cow and water dog loves it... here's the so called recipe:

You will need some ginger, onions, chili padi and curry leaves

Prawns! (duh!), removed the legs and de-veined it

1st, fry the ginger, onion, cili padi and curry leaves until fragrance. Then dump in the prawns. Fry until you are happy, add in the condiments like chinese cooking wine, soy sauce, dark soy sauce, oyster sauce and a dash of sugar.

Voila! Ya.. i know, a bit the too dark.. but it's damn yummy! :D

Then apparently, the next day, i cooked braised shitake mushroom with ming karn and served it with noodles....

fuck la... looking at this now makes me damn hungry... =.="

Then, one nite, cowie decided to turn halal and start wearing a tudung =.="

Kawan-kawan sekalian, this is Cowie Binti Lembu :D

Here's some pix of sunrise at Ruby's Resort, taken on the 1st day when we were fucking early.

Erm... ok, that's all the pics that i m willing to post :D

i was pretty emo last nite. about what? a lot of stuffs lor, financial, family, ifer and him.

financial - i dont wanna talk about it.

family - it's always though during festive seasons. i know, i know, it's my choice and i should just live with it. i m living with it but i am also human, i also got feelings one lor. in front of everyone i told them i dont care. i am not celebrating cny. but i do feel shitty inside lor. but there's no turning back alre. the u-turn has been blocked. so i can only go straight ahead.

him - been a long time since i last heard from him. last nite we talked for awhile and all those buried feelings suddenly rushed out. why like this?

ifer - i miss ifer alot. when i was going thru the shitty period with my fam a few years back, her whole family welcomed me like their own. it was a fun trip going back to their kampung in their dad's small little car with all 5 of us cramped into it. and then it was fun taking the bus back to kl. a usual 3.5hrs drive to the kampung takes about 7hrs bus ride back. coz the bus stops every fucking where :D and we were standing for more than half the ride back :D it was fun. when we reached kl, we walked around Petaling St before 3 of us (ifer and her sis and i) head back to my rented room in subang and they stayed a nite and we had fun laughing and joking all the way. i missed that. i also missed the bond that ifer and i shared. :( seriously, most of the crazy stunts i did in my life were with her lor.... when we are craving for jeruk mangga (pickled mangos), we will drive around the nearby neighborhood and steal some raw mangoes :D or when we wanted to get a valid mc for the next day's calculus test coz we didnt study/practice, she wears her bikini and me wearing my pj and sat outside the thunderstorm hoping that we will fall sick :P and walked around ss15 like that :D or... ok... i just realized the rest of the more memorable memories with her are a tad too illegal to blog about it :D it was just illegal crazy stunts that we did not knowing how much trouble we might get into if we got caught :D

so, ya... i think i think too much. time to take out the brains and put it in the freezer again.

i wanted to cry last nite. but i was too fucking exhausted to cry. but i felt like crying... and i scroll thru the songs that i have in my hp... niama! dont have tears inducing songs also!!! so i fed up... today i transferred more tears inducing songs into my phone.... in case i need to cry again :D

Baby and I

baby and i knew each other way back in 1993 when both of us were active in Leo Club. He in BP, me in Kluang. We became fast friends when we started hanging out a lot. when i got my license, i stole my dad's car and drove to BP to hang out. If not, i will just take a bus ride there. He is damn cute lor. characterwise, that is :D

when he came out of the closet to our gang, i was damn happy. at least he is happy and knows what he wants. then slowly we drifted apart. the last time i talked to him over the phone was back in 2006 when i was working in ITT. then no more. i lost all the numbers in my phonebook. recently i got his number from a mutual friend via FB and i called him. he didnt answer. i sms-ed him, he didnt reply. i tried a few times over the period of a few months, but Baby never answer my calls. i thought, ok, maybe he is busy working, lawyer ma, sure damn busy one... but he never returned my call. i memang feel weird already. did i say something offensive to him the last time i talked to him? i dont remember wor...

so anyway, last nite Minger and i were at pyramid and we passed by this restaurant and i stopped, sitting next to the glass panel looks like a very jaded looking Baby. so i asked Minger, is that Baby? Minger also say look like Baby. So i took out my phone and call him. he looked at his phone, silent it and continue ignoring my call whilst i was standing outside looking at him doing that.

like. W.O.W. that hurts. i m feeling more hurt than insulted, feeling more confused and curious than angry. what when wrong? what did i do last time? how come i dont remember one? :(

Murphy's Law day...

and so i was arguing with Mr. S aka 5cm. and suddenly....

Ms Know it All: Wei, Big Cow u all argue so much, next time sure kahwin one!
Me: choi lor!!! 5cm leh how to get satisfactions??

*whole office burst into laughter*


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10 yrs ago, i had a mental breakdown. i tried to kill myself my popping 80 slimming pill (doc's advice, cannot take more than 1 pill within 24hrs coz it will cause weak heart) and 8 panadols. i survived, but was fucking high. then i started to get obsessed with my hair. i find them mostly damaged (or so i thought) and started to pull them out 1 by 1 for god knows how long. the aftermath? i look like some cancer patient. =.=" yea, it was that bad.

funny how 10 yrs has passed. whatever that doesnt kill me only makes me stronger. i believe that.

why am i suddenly talking about this? dunno leh... i guess i was pretty stressed out today and i really really really have this really strong urge to pull out my hair. and then i teringat about that incident and decided to blog about it to let it off my chest. i've nothing really to hide anyway. coz i am pretty transparent person. when i am not happy, my face shows it. when i m happy, my face shows it. when i m pissed, the whole world knows it coz i usually go thru rage rampage before i realised what i just did.

the thing is, i seriously know i am mentally unstable. i know, i really do. i wish doctors will certified me as mentally insane.... :D really :D i'll be rich then :D

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oh oh... mingirl kena chicken pox :P

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went to watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past last nite courtesy of Auntie Lisa. get the dvd. not really worth watching in cinema or wait for it on astro :D

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the fucked ups today. new customer using us. from SG to PGU. they have alot of potentials. so we tried to bend our backs for them. they needed same day delivery. we hired an external agent to do this job.

fucked up 1: customer gave wrong pick up add. truck went wrong add

fucked up 2: customer's correct pick up address abit wrong. truck went to wrong warehouse to load wrong items to the truck only to find out it's wrong. so have to unload the wrong cargo again. (time consuming)

fucked up 3: after loading the correct cargo at the correct warehouse, the truck's container latch couldnt be close. and finally managed to fixed it after 30mins (another time consuming)

fucked up 4: the recepient in PGU refused to wait for the goods. and told us if we couldnt reach at 5.15pm, he wants us to deliver on monday instead. time read 3.30pm, truck still in SG. customer made and executive decision at 4.10pm to request the truck to go back to the warehouse.

drama 1: agent called up to screw us upside down saying the address is wrong. case rectified but i a bit boh song, we are their customer leh, how come they get to screw us?

drama 2: agent called to tell us that the driver is there and the goods are not ready. the warehouse needs to paint the drums and can only finish loading into the truck at 4pm hence, agent wanna charge us extra. i called customer, customer said the goods are ready. verified with agent, agent screw me even more telling me that it's not ready and screaming and shouting at me. called the warehouse and they told me the goods are ready and infact, it has finished loading. called agent and screwed them big time. niama chau cibai! why lie to me??? so i emailed them and tell them i will not accept their extra charges.

drama 3: customer told me she found out the real story on how stupid the truck driver is to go to a wrong warehouse and loaded the wrong goods, upon finished loading, the correct warehouse personnel got worried, how come the truck havent arrive? only then did they found out the truck driver's stupidity. hence, all these time consuming fucked up is not our problem but the stupid driver and agent's problem. so i called the agent and screw them upside down even more. then agent started to twist and turn the whole story until it seems like it's all our fault and none theirs.

drama 4: customer decided to ask our truck to turn back and they will not pay a single sen since the job has not been done and the whole issue wouldnt have happened if the driver hadnt did the stupid stunt. they conveniently forgotten that they have given us a wrong name. great. so i wrote a long email to agent giving them the chronological fact and acknowledged that no matter what, they have to charge us. but we implore them to give us discounts as it's their driver's stupidity that causes all these unwanted incident. of coz i wrote in a more diplomatic way la. agent received the email and started to scream and shout at me and twisting the whole story another way. which really pisses me off huge time. they kept on insisting that we dont wanna pay, i kept on trying to explain to them we are requesting for a discount and they keep on insisting we dont wanna pay and kept on interrupting whenever i tried to speak. so i shouted:

fine! you wanna talk?? go ahead and talk! talk all you want! i am trying to tell you something but you are just too damn fucking stupid to listen! go! talk! talk all you want! fucker!

then he continue shouting that we dont wanna pay. so i shouted:

i didnt say we dont wanna pay, i am just asking for discount and since you are so damn fucking stupid to listen, fine! go ahead and bill us! we are not gonna pay, since that's what you insisted! fucker! and i will make sure i tell the accounts not to release the payment!

*slammed down the fone*

lady boss came over and asked me what happened. told her from a-z and she started laughing. apparently, so far only me, Mr S and Big Boss dare to screw the agent until like that. the agent even made the Asst. Finance Manager burst into tears before!

of coz lady boss dont really condone to my uncustomer service behavior la. but i told her, i m bleeding, we are the customer and we tried to be nice but they are too stupid to understand so i fuck care.

the thing is, we memang planning to drop this agent for sometime liao. we have already made plans and i think in 2 months time, the agent will lose us, their major customer for good.

so yea, that was the whole fucking drama and fucked up that happened today. and it's the customer's 1st order with us. damn great hor? we call this the Murphy's Law's job. Anything that can fucked up in this job will definitely fucked up.

friendship...

.... so this big cow did a big boo boo a coupla years ago. over drugs, i was willing to let go of my dearest friends whom i've known almost all my life from primary school.

what happened ah? Welp, Telinga Serigala, Jading Woonding, Ms Windy and Jerseycow (me) used to be pretty tight lor... go to school also go together, go tuition also go together, hang out also hang out together, we had many many slumber parties together. yea... we were that tight.

so over the years, we all grow up and went our separate ways, but still got keep in contact, not often, but when we do meet up, we sure reminisce all those silly stuffs that happened to us when we were growing up. We always start off the stories by "Remember or not...." and then proceed into giggling more than we say out what happened. but all of us will definitely remember one, no need to finish the sentence also all 4 of us will already end up giggling alre.

so, what's big cow's big boo boo? welp, as most of you might have guessed or suspected, i was a drug abuser before. and the biggest mistake that i've done during my drug abusing days were..... i ffk Telinga Serigala's wedding. why? many stupid reasons, i felt that i rather use the money to SG to buy drugs than to meet up with them. drugs were my everything then. also, deep down inside i felt that i was not worthy of them. hey, i m afterall a smoker, a drug abuser and also a failure in life (that was my mentality then la). i mean Telinga Serigala has her own business, Jading Woonding is a big shot in the hotel industry and Ms Windy is like some kinda jet setter, flying to various countries to work. me? still in KL slumming. so yea, i was feeling damn insecure and inferior lor... that's why i thought it's better i m outta their life and not be a sampah masyarakat to them :(

anyway, ever since i ffk the wedding, i lagi takde muka to talk to them la. i mean, harlow, i seriously fucked up big time wei.... how to face them la? and the best part of it all was, they didnt really give up on me. once in awhile i will receive emails or sms from them. what did i do? i ignore them. too malu liao ma.... so fucked up hor??

so, after awhile, i became clean (i am damn proud to say i havent touch drugs in years lor - altho i do still miss the highness, but i didnt touch anymore) and my outlook in life also changed. i wasnt as depressed and as negative as before. and i started to keep in contact with Jading and Windy, but not Telinga Serigala. i mean wei... i feel damn no face to be her friend anymore and i figured she must have hated me like mad la... so yea... then today, Jading told me that Telinga Serigala is coming up to KL for her bro's wedding in July and she encouraged me to contact her again. and i did! :D and i m gonna meet her next month! yay! :D

anyway, the above story happens in the the span of 5 years. yep, we stopped talking for 5 years.... damn long hor? she is already a mother of a 3 yrs old daughter :D i hope to see the daughter this time also la :D

also hor, i know i have to work extra hard to get back this friendship la, coz hor, i was in the wrong in the 1st place. so i m gonna be all puppifying and go with my tail between my legs and sad puppy look :P (that's just a figure of a speech ok? :P)

so yea, big cow has finally grown up :D

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ok, i know you must be thinking, why the fuck am i still in my office at 6.33pm on saturday????? work lah... u think what? :P but i m leaving soon liao la.. coz i've cleared my back log, next week will be another great busy week :D as i always say to Mr S and Finger, send horse over! (fang ma kuo lai!) :D

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gonna sing k with small cow later tonite after her work! woohoo! :D i cant wait! that song below has been on a repeated mode the whole day in office today! not me! Mr S also crazy over the song, so he set it on repeated mode :P

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most likely meeting MF tomorrow :D i cant wait to see him. i seriously seriously seriously is head over heels in love with him la! i dont know why!!! :D

did i tell you? i wrote him an embarrassing love email :P yea, talk about being grown up just a few lines ago, eh?

welp, u know me la... i am an extremist... do or die. why keep it inside? might as well go ahead and tell him lor :D

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i really need to go off liao.... wanna go home and sleep a bit before small cow come fetch me :D

have a great weekend ahead all! :D

yesterday...

... was an emotional roller coaster day for me. but in a good way actually :D

1st(down), i'm still pissed with small cow for being pissed with me for being pissed with her for being pissed with me for being pissed with her.... anyways, it's complicated.

2nd(up), found a fling

3rd(confused), MF added me in FB

4th (shocked & sad), found out that my ex form teacher's son, JJ passed away. We got history with JJ one. damn silly highschool days history la... but overall, dont think he is a nice person. Just feel sad for my teacher, that's all

5th(up up!), Fai and Minger @ Minger's FB :P

and............ the best of it all.....

6th (super up), Mr Pedestal, yup, that guy whom i've always put high up on the pedestal whom we have not spoken in like more than 10 years whom whenever i hear his name or see his name or see him, my heart goes beepopbeepopbeepop, whom, due to my silly antics during schooling days is avoiding me like mad.... SEND ME A FUCKING MESSAGE IN FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

but.... i had a very disturbing dream.

i dont really remember much of it, i know the gist of it was i came back late, my mom got angry and she dragged me to the street and caned me till i was half dead. which honestly speaking, i believe my mom will do that in real life when she is pissed enough.... i think i m psychologically scarred for life from my mom's craziness la...

ok. that's too depressing.

let's talk about MF a lil bit. i realized i m really in love with him coz even with Mr Pedestal sending me a msg, MF is the 1st person whom i wanna share this happy news with. not to gloat or anything, he is just the 1st person i think of when i have something happy to share. but of coz i didnt contact him la! as it is, my asshole got a lot of worms already. dont need to stuff more in :x

oh oh... remember i told you before, i m a social retard? as in like in social gatherings, i will always feel awkward and dont know what to say or do? welp, i was suppose to sign the condolences guestbook for JJ, but i dont know what to write or say leh... i seriously think i am fucked up socially :(

last nite....

.... i had an extremely quick dinner with LM

.... i went to watch Hannah Montana the Movie. it's FOC ok? :P and the cinema were full of kids :D it was not bad actually. now trying to find her song to download... ya... i am a teeny bopper now... heehee *giggles* (ok, i wish to give myself a slap for that annoying giggles)

.... i saw v0ices, my once every 2 years fuck guy. but no more alre la :D

.... i didnt manage to see Baby Chanel.. :(

.... i fell asleep listening to this over and over and over again:



Ni zui jing bu shuo hua
Zen me le wei shen me
Shi bu shi you shen me shi rang ni bu kuai le
Ting shuo ni zui jin hen gu dan
You dian luan you dian huang
Keshi wo que bu neng gou zai ni de sheng pang
Ni xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
Wo neng gei de que bu shi ni xiang yong you de
Wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
Hao ji ci wo men bao zhe pi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Ni chang jie shi zhe yang de yi qie dou zhi shi kai shi
Wo jue de shi suo you de yi qie zao jiu yi jie shu
Bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Ni zui jing bu shuo hua
Zen me le wei shen me
Shi bu shi you shen me shi rang ni bu kuai le
Ting shuo ni zui jin hen gu dan
You dian luan you dian huang
Keshi wo que bu neng gou zai ni de sheng pang
Ni xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
Wo neng gei de que bu shi ni xiang yong you de
Wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
Hao ji ci wo men bao zhe pi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Ni chang jie shi zhe yang de yi qie dou zhi shi kai shi
Wo jue de shi suo you de yi qie zao jiu yi jie shu
Bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Ai wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
Wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de
Wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
Hao ji ci wo men bao zhe pi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Ni chang jie shi zhe yang de yi qie dou zhi shi kai shi
Wo jue de shi suo you de yi qie zao jiu yi jie shu
Bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Zhe yi ci wo men dou neng hen xing fu

it was suppose to be another boring weekend. after work on Saturday, i've stupidly decided not to stock up on food for dinner knowing full well that my plan was to finish up the taiwanese series that i've been watching.... so at around 7ish, i was terribly hungry to the extend of fainting...so i drove out aimlessly, not knowing what to eat... actually i had a few things on my mind, but i was really too lazy to actually find parking :P so i ended up at the usual lok lok place for dinner. i dont know if you've ever had this feeling before or not... i was feeling damn bored with life, with everything. it's like, nothing excites me anymore. even the food i took also tasted weird. so anyway, on the way back, i called Andrew, my ex, in SG. we were talking about stuffs (read: sex) and the next thing i know, he told me he wishes to fuck my cousin, Minger. and i went: eeeewwwwww.... no! that's so wrong is so many ways!

feeling disgusted, i found excuse to hang up the phone and called Minger. yep, she was grossed out. the thing is, i m grossed out by the fact that i've slept with him before and if he sleeps with my cousin, whom i've always treated as a younger sister, it's sooooo weird, no? so anyway, as i was bored, i needed to go out, and i asked Minger if she wannna watch a movie the next day. she wanted to watch Angels and Demons, which Small Cow and i have already watched, but dont mind watching. So dengan rakusnya we decided to watch the morning show coz we knew there will definitely be tickets available on a Sunday morning. Called Small Cow who is on the way to work (midnite shift) and told her about the plan and she also wanna join la... so she bought the tickets. watched the taiwanese show till about 3ish 4, and slept till about 9am when Small Cow called to tell me that she is gonna pick me up. Minger wanted to sleep longer so she is gonna go by herself. the whole want-to-watch-movie-thing is a waste la.... Small Cow and i ended up sleeping in the cinema :P

so anyway, after movie, we lunched and then we all cannot tahan alre and went back to sleep. coz we had dinner plans with Ah Yi and Ah Ma. but on the way back, we realized that it defeats the purpose of having dinner with them coz it will mean that we will be lack of sleep, so we cancelled on them. which is a good thing. the next thing we knew, we woke up at 10pm :P feeling hungry, we decided to go somewhere near to eat. yea right. near my ass. :P we ended up in Jln Alor. :P

Anyway, the highlights of the weekend.

Annoying Bitch Neighbour - I've this neighbour who moved in like a few months back and she is fucking annoying and bitchy. the 1st time i kena her bitchiness was:

scenario 1: i was walking up the stairs and she and her husband was behind me and suddenly in an extremely hiao tone, she say this to her husband: "Nnnnnngggg.... so fat, walk so slow up" yup, she was refering to me =.=" then i let them pass 1st (i know what is courtesy also one, u know?) and they pulak walk damn fucking slow! like wtf??

scenario 2: lm kena from her. that one next time on say la... need graphics one :P

scenario 3: the bitch was dunno hiao-ing with her husband at their door and she was saying things like: "nnnnggggg.... dont want la.... hee hee hee.... *then she saw me and then said* nnnggggg.... fei por come back alre!! *slam the door*"

scenario 4: this one just only happened on saturday nite. so as i was saying i've made plans with small cow and minger to watch movies the next day, and i was feeling much happier la... so whilst i was at the wet area to retrieve my bajus out from the washing machine to hang dry, i started singing out loud... and suddenly, i heard the bitch's voice: "nnnnnggggggggggg haaaarrrrnnnniiiiiiiii the person sing until sooooooooooo horrible!!!" damn fucking tulan lor..... so i called small cow and minger to tell them... and from then on, we kept on calling each other haaaarrrrrniiiiie :P

anyway, another highlight:

so i was waiting for Small Cow to check out the movie time to arrange the time to meet. and i sms-ed: "Honey, remember to check out the movie time ya ;)"

and i was waiting... and waiting... and suddenly, i received an sms from MF:

"wat?"

and i was like damn blur la... why suddenly got sms from him? so i replied:

"har? wat wat?"

and he replied:

"wat movie?"

then only the bloody lightbulb flashed, oh. i tersent sms to him - AGAIN! omg.

anyway, dont really wanna talk about him. so next.

so anyway, Small Cow wanna do passport today. and i told her to go Subang Airport one coz it's the nearest ma... and then ask her to stay a night la... so last night, or rather this morning, i was asking her if her alarm is loud. and she said yea. and i went, louder than mine? and she say she not sure. so i went to set my alarm to ring 1 minute later and i said to her: "see if mine's louder or yours"

.... silence..... (waiting for 1 min ma)

and then suddenly Small Cow say:

"mine's definitely louder"

i went... "...."

and then we both burst into laughter. nia ma! 1 minute la!

anyway, yea, hers is definitely louder :P

oh oh... the final highlight..... last nite, i've confessed my feelings for MF and told him that it's not healthy for me to see him anymore. so yea. end of story, ok? no more MF.

chapter close.

it's all good tho... :D

anyway, yea... i gotta stop now.... need to clear up my stuffs and leave early today....

why??


becoz....


BABY CHANEL IS BACK IN KL!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay! i miss her so much! wanna go play with her tonite :D

stumbled upon this and it's damn fucking funny la... listen at your own risk if you are listening it in office ;)

this podcast reminds me of the handful of NS guys i used to date when i was in SG. And i tell ya, NS guys are the best fuck ever! :P Especially if those guys are from the commando camps! :P

another flashback down memory lane....

my thoughts wanders a lot when i am driving. so what happened was, this morning whilst driving to work, my thoughts wandered quite far... i think it all started with the crow i saw. i started to think about hantus. then i also dunno how la... i ter-ingat of the notorious story during primary school days. i remembered i was in Primary 4 and my bro was in Primary 6. And there was this camping thingie happening in the school. Nope, i dont think my bro and i went for this camping thing. But something happened during that camping weekend that set the whole school abuzz for the rest of the school year. You see, my primary school and secondary school were the torture chambers during the Japanese Occupation, so naturally that whole area damn haunted one la... So anyway, what happened during that camping weekend was, there was a lot of eye witnesses. they saw this tall dark shadowy thingie at the staircase of my classroom block and a few students started to fall sick. when we told our mom about it, she told us it's "Yi Jian Fa Cai" you know, that black and white thingie.... yea, my ghostly knowledge is not that good. so you just go google it la... i malas to google it for you... so anyway, not long after the camping incident, one of the students died of a freak accident in the school. he got struck by lightning on a clear day. :P

so anyway, fast forward to almost 10 yrs later, i was back in Kluang for holiday and i met Ah Beng out for yumchar. that time he and i were fucking like rabbits in SG and we were back in Kluang pretending to be just good friends. it was stupid, but at that time it was pretty funny. so anyway, that night, after leaving everyone, we decided to go some secluded to place to fool around la... what to do... we were both living with parents and seriously, with our parents being friends and all, it's just not funny to hook up and the town is too small for us to hook up. so anyway, of all places, we decided to go to our primary school area. i know, stupid right? so he was driving slowly whilst i was giving him a handjob. :P i know, i know, fucking stupid, what with the stupid police station so damn nearby...... so anyway, we passed by the school canteen, which is very near the said staircase where 10yrs ago some teachers and students sighted something. and he slowed down damn alot and we somehow suddenly dont know why, were looking at the same spot (ie the queueing lane to buy tidbits) and we didnt say anything. i stopped watever i was doing and he also got deflated. and then he just drove off much faster. after leaving that area, we both asked each other: did you see what i just saw??? and we both also agreed we saw something and then he proceed in driving back to the area to confirm if our eyes were playing tricks on us or we really saw something. how to prove? we also dunno. of coz when we went back, the thing we saw is no longer there la.... so yea... what did we saw that nite? a black shadow with a form of like a human were either queueing up to get tidbits or just leaning on the queueing metal bar. but that thing was definitely there and we definitely both saw that thing la... :P

so what happened after that? welp, we were too excited about the prospect that we might have stumbled upon hantus (that was before my changi airport incident) that we were talking about it and laughing about it (yea, we werent freaked out at all - i guess). and no, we didnt continue with wat was the original plan. :P it was by then about 4am in the morning and we got our own family gatherings to go to the next day... i think it was during cny or xmas time when it happened. not quite sure alre... that was like 13 yrs ago la :) i feeel soooooooooooo damn old :P

so yea... this is another piece of my history :)

The story of "Hey Baby" :D

lack of sleep = extremely grouchy Big Cow.

So to avoid fucking everyone upside down, i m currently listening to my mp3 player. not coz i wanna show of or anything, just that Mr S is fucking noisy and annoying - ok la... he is like that DAILY but today i m sleepy, so it's not ok.

anyway, am listening to "Hey Baby" from Dirty Dancing OST right now and i ter-ingat about that fella.... one of my highschool crush, whom i do not know his name :P i just know who he is, whose cousin he is, and whose son is he :P, which school he goes to :P which 1119 tuition he went to... yea... i damn the fail :P the thing is, i know his cousin damn well and i remember his cousin told me his name, but me being me, cannot remember chinese name well, so, yea... i dont remember his name :P so, how come this song reminds me of him? welp, you see, his dad owns an electrical shop in Kluang and my parents are old time friends with them. so we bought ALL our electrical stuffs from them. And during my Form 4 / Form 5 days, my mom decided to keep on buying electrical stuffs every few weeks or we call them to come over to service our aircon. so yea, almost every other weekend he will be at my home helping out. and it was during one of those weekends that i was listening to my Dirty Dancing OST that he came over. And instead of working, he came to the living room and we hung out. And he told me he loves the movie and OST alot and we both agreed that "Hey Baby" is one of the best track in the OST. oh oh... he knows my name... u see, we shared the same tuition teacher too (hence i know about the 1119 tuition la-duh) and i was..erm.. sort of naughty la in class, so i was sort of like, erm, notorious.... and forever making the teacher shakes his head in despair. :P so yea, i dont know his name, he hung out with me for about 2 hrs, whilst his staff/colleague were servicing the aircon all alone :P so yea, "Hey Baby" is our song together :D the funny thing is, i was surprised he knows my name and me being me being stupid were too shy to ask his name coz tak kan lah he knows my name and i go and ask his name, right? :P damn paiseh u know? :P we did bump into each other a coupla times after i've gone to SG to work. then i heard from my dad he got married, so i also didnt really bother anymore :D

so yea, this is the story about "Hey Baby" :D

yes, most of the songs that i like have a story behind it :D

btw, i went back to kluang and found my diary circa Form 1-3. and when i read it, i was cringing with embarrassment.... :P maybe i will share them with you over here next time ;)

Anyway, enjoy this song la :D