loooooong ass post :D

it's thursday! tomorrow is friday! fun! fun! fun! *doing a Rebecca Black*

anyway, so much has happened recent. life changing moment actually! :D

let's do the diary style la (if i remember)


Saturday, 2nd April 2011

Left office at around 5pm. When i left office, i felt so liberated and happy. It's like "wow! i left office early! yay!" then i immediately realized "waitaminit... it's a fucking saturday!!" shoot home to fetch minger coz i was craving for Garden's Ayam Penyet :P and i want to finally have my ice kacang with the green syrup... damn hard to find ice kacang with green syrup already, ok??? somemore when i talk about the green syrup, most people laugh at me like i made it up. really got one!! >.< we arrived Gardens super hungry only to find out the ayam penyet stall is no longer operating! omfg! then i remembered the food court in mv has a branch! so we walked all the way there - already super duper hungry, still have to walk a distance =.=" reached there, THE FUCKING STALL IS CLOSED!!!! really FOL! we decided to go Little Penang Cafe instead. On the way there we already thought of what to order. and we ordered the moment we seated. no need to even look at the menu :D

After makan, we went to the basement to get my honeycomb biscuit. and bought some toileteries stuffs at guardian then proceeded to Carrefour to get my HDD :D got promo! :D after buying stuffs, we were carrying the stuffs on our hands since it's a no plastic day. walked all the way to gardens to put the stuffs in the car. then went into Robinson to look see look see (minger's idea) then went to the food court to have my ice kacang. omg! it's very nice!! :D

went back after that. called small cow to ask her if we were still meeting and she told me she can't. ok lor :( went home and bathe and get ready for my dvd marathon. just when i was about to start, small cow call me to ask me if i wanna go and rescue her in jinjang or not. so off i went to rescue her.... only to get lost and she ended up getting her aunt to drive her out to rescue me =.="

after meeting up, we realized we were thinking of the same thing: KARAOKE!!! :D we called Daph to see if she wants to join us or not. then shoot over to USJ19 Mall. We sang and laughed so much until cheeks ache!! :D by around 3.30am, small cow's battery already flat. she actually lie down on the sofa and fell asleep for about 5mins and then straightaway wake up when Daph started her hokkien songs! damn funny! :D

left the karaoke at around 4something. went over to daph's place to see her new dog, coco.... omg... coco is soooooooooooooo manja! :D i think we left daph's place around 5am. drove to SS14 to pump petrol before driving small cow back to kepong. by the time i reached home, it was already 6am! :D


Sunday, 3rd April 2011

Intended to sleep all the way thru and wake up on Monday. But by 3ish, i couldnt sleep anymore and i started to bug people to go out with me. Minger says that she wants to go Tesco for groceries shopping at 7pm. so i told her i wanna go. i need to keep myself occupied la... if not, i will ended up thinking nonsense. i've decided that i wanna make 2 tubs of chilis - chicken rice chilli and sambal belacan. so we went to tesco and i bought the ingredients :D by the time we left tesco was around 8ish..... popped over at subway to get some bite (i've decided to rebelliously eat beef - knowing very well i will itch like mad!!) and then went home to start preparing my chilli sauces. :D the result? super nice!!! i love love love my sambal belacan!! :D

when i went into my room, and i saw a hell lot of missed calls!! all from my mom. called her and she broke the news that will change my life forever :Das most of you know, my mom is a fortune teller and she has been giving a lot of numbers to people and they strike. everytime they strike, they will either give her stuffs or cash. this time round, her client strike big. really big. i do not know how much they gave my mom but my mum gave me a hell lot of money. enough to pay back all the debts and even get myself a blackberry torch :D when she told me the news, i didnt believe her. i mean where got so good one? wanna gimme so much money! o.O so she made a bet with me. if i really got the money, i will have to help her talk to my bro. and if i didnt get the money, i will have the pleasure to tell her: see! i told you so!! :P

after hearing the news, i couldnt sleep at all.


Monday, 4th April 2011

woke up extra early to make up. it's Lat Kampung Boy the Musical night!! w00t!!! :D

Extra busy day. Shit happened at work. At the same time, i needed to talk to my bro. to set the record straight, i havent got the money yet that time. i know i have to talk to him coz he is too much to ignore my mom la. she is not matter what still our mother. how can he do that? anyway, here's the convo:

Big Cow: can we talk?
Fuzzy (my bro): what about?
Big Cow: mommy. talked to her last nite.she is super depressed. apparently u are ignoring her?
Fuzzy: yes
Big Cow: what happened la?
Fuzzy: I don't like lies
Big Cow: i asked her wat happened and she say she is not sure?
Fuzzy: and I am tired of them
Big Cow: what did she lie to u ?
Fuzzy: I don't want to discuss it
Big Cow: u do know that mommy loves u the most right? whatever nonsense she do or say, in her own twisted ways, she meant well. just that her mentality is quite twisted.
Fuzzy: I know.
Big Cow: dont ignore her so much la. papa and mommy not getting younger. they are in their 60s already leh. how many more years they have left?
Fuzzy: is it really worth it to play a charade of lies?
Big Cow: wat did she lie to u?
Fuzzy: she knows. or she can pretend to not know. I don't give a shit now
Big Cow: mommy is a person who exaggerates a hell lot and has a lot of secrets that she is not willing to share with us. in order to cover her secrets, she has to create lies to cover it up. has her lies hurt you or harm u in anyways?
Fuzzy: I don't know. why don't you ask her? let her spin more
Big Cow: is it about religion?
Fuzzy: I don't want to delve or discuss further
Big Cow: ok. just remember, they are not getting any younger, they dont have much time left. dont cut them off like this. also, when they are gone, it will be too late for you to make peace with them. i can see they are not as strong as before. u think about it la. just take mommy's words with a pinch of salt la. i never really believe what she says anyway. :D but her depression is quite apparent. u know very well how dysfunctional our family is. it takes more effort for us than anyone else we know to work towards a balance equilibrium (or watever it's called). u also know i m damn fucked up and u also sounded me many times before. i admit i m very fucked up and i m working hard toward unfucking up my life also
Fuzzy: I think it is extremely selfish for mom to expect others to remember her birthday but never once have I ever recalled that she remember out of her own volition her children and grandchildren's birthdays
Big Cow: ok. that one i agree. but then again, mommy and papa are like this all our lives leh. we grow up reminding them our bday and we request for presents from them. they dont offer to us one leh. we have to accept the fact that our parents are not like other people's parents. and they are so old already, it's impossible to get them to change now. so what we have to do is just accept it la. somemore you are over in usa, u dont have to deal with her nonsense all the time.
Fuzzy: so what are mommy's secret that you know?
Big Cow: not gonna tell u especially when u are so pissed and disgusted with her :D u cool down la... mommy last night also sounded me for being unfillial for not calling back often. so i made her a promise i will call back weekly. dunno what to talk about also if and when i call back weekly.
Fuzzy: you don't tell, I won't even consider calling mom. u choose
Big Cow: blackmail nor ultimatums dont work for us scorpios, you know that. it's a secret i found out myself. not from her own mouth. u are not telling me what lies she tells u anyway. watever it is, she is still our mom, she did go thru painful labour pain to give birth to us. and she loves u the most. she admit it last nite also. and i was surprised she actually apologized to me last nite that she doesnt love me as much.... ouch. but surprisingly i wasnt feeling angry nor hurt when she said that to me, i guess i am already immuned to it :D

anyway, he ignored me after that :D can u believe he is my OLDER brother?? *shakes head*

later in the afternoon, i checked my bank account and the money is not in yet. so i called my mom planning to say: hah! i told you so!!!

but before i can say that, i heard her background sound: dua satu satu kosong kaunter empat....

and i went: miiii you in the bank ah????
mummy: ya la
me: oh. ok

then hung up.

1 min later, she called to ask me to check my account. omfg! i strike lottery! :D

Few minutes later, i received an email from Minger that she got a better job!! it's like suddenly both of us has a life changing moment! :D

life changing for me coz the money is enough to cover ALL my debts. every single ringgits and sens and for the 1st time in the past decade, i can safely say, i m debt free. really really free :D not even car loan :D not even telephone bills or owing friends :D

and it's so damn liberating!! :D

So anyway, left office on the dot to rush for Lat Kampung Boy the Musical. OMFG!!! it's so damn great!!! we have so many talented people in Malaysia!! :D i enjoyed it soooooo much that i ended up giving standing ovation.... standing ovation is something that malaysians are not very good at giving coz i was one of the handful who gave :D nevertheless, it's so damn fucking good!!!!! :D


Tuesday, 5th April 2011

work like shit. as usual. then after work, started my round of bank paying :D went for a celebration dinner with Minger. celebrate her new found job and the fact that she is going over to Netherlands for 1 month soon :D and celebrate my new found freedom :D


Wednesday, 6th April 2011

more shit happened at work. at this point of time. i really really seriously thought of quiting and move back to SG. this is something that i m still currently contemplating. but the very thought of uprooting myself and leave everyone and everything here is kinda scary =.=" but if i m not uprooting, a lot of ppl are suggesting i get a property. i m thinking about it. i m not sure yet. my mom lagi hebat. told me if i dont go SG, she will buy me a new car and a place to stay. that's really too much la... i cannot take so much money from her. as it is, i m already feeling damn guilty about it. yes, i do feel guilty for taking money from my mom at this age ok? :D

the thing is, murphy is still serving me very well. and i really dont see any reasons for getting a new car :D will just send him to knock back the dents and change tyres and maybe tint it and change the sound system :D

as for a property. i dont know. i m not really keen at this point of time coz it's like i've finally clear all my debts and suddenly i have a bigger debt on me. siao meh? but then again, i m paying monthly rent..... aih.... headache... this is such an adult thing to think :(

went another few rounds of bank paying :D


Thursday, 7th April 2011

Made my final payment to the bank :D paid other debts and at this point of time, as i type, i've only got 2 more to pay over the counter and then i m done :D

Aaaaannnndddddd......... i am getting my Blackberry Torch tonite!!!! weeeeee!!!!!!! :D

Conclusion: i m feeling blessed and happy at the moment with a tinged of shame for taking money from my mom. but i see it as a 2nd chance in life and i seriously gonna treasure this chance and not fuck up financially anymore! :D :D :D :D :D

打不死的蟑螂!!

papa cow just called me to update me on the court case. pretty dramatic... like some kinda TVB drama series!

and my over active mind threw some questions - unnecessary questions - which makes papa cow more agitated. my bad. i know... but i cant help thinking of those dramatic scenario! :P like how reliable is that Ms Wong and Ah Piao (my dad's staffs)? what if that asshole bribe them to turn around and bite papa cow??? just like TVB drama! :P but no la.... i dont think so la... altho i dont like Ms Wong and i dont trust her the moment i met her, but i think she is not that stupid la..... *i think*

anyway, will most likely be making a trip to the High Court in Muar sometime in May. Must be a good daughter also ma.... gonna give him moral support and i wanna see that asshole's face also!!! maybe i get to spit on the asshole! *ptui* funny, how after all these years, i've not seen that asshole's face before. but i've heard so much about him i can imagine how fucking yong sui he is lor!!! he is like a fucking 打不死的蟑螂!! (ta bu si de zhang lang!!) - erm... loosely translated as cockroach that will not die no matter how we beat it!

on a lighter note, i am gonna stock up on otak otak!! wee!!! :D if sempat la.. :D

so, i went back for CNY. as usual, it has been a dramatic one. met an accident on the way back to kluang, grandmother goes crazy, did a silly mistake and the elders treat it as if like i've done a horrible crime! Anyway, not all is bad la... i am kinda lazy to blog. here are some pics.

Camp bed - which everyone seems to be fighting to sleep on it. why ah?

my workstation for the 1st 2 days in kluang :D i promised the bosses that i will monitor the work from home. this is how i monitor ;)

as usual, popo cooked a hell of alot for just 4 of us =.="

Sooooooooo weird!! pseudo Donald Duck, Bugs Bunny and Mickey Mouse came and wish everyone happy Chinese New Year!! the 'MC' were explaining the meanings in mandarin but i tuned her out :P

Went to Singapore on the 3rd of Chinese New Year to meet up long lost friends and i am really glad i've made this trip! :D

View of Singapore Flyer from the carpark

view from the flyer

Dinner in the Sky. my question is, will the waiter/waitress be in the flyer with the diners? if yes, not unromantic and awkward meh? if no, not mah fan to change your own course of meal and pour your own wine meh? wont the food be cold already?

Little handsome, cheeky, smart, cute Xavier :D he is so cute and smart! and he can really dance!! :D

updates

Redbabe and I went over to Singapore to attend Jeff's wake on Wednesday. it was an impromptu thingie. we took the 5.30pm flight over to Changi and then took the 11pm flight back to LCCT. it was pretty exhausting for me coz i totally forgotten we need to walk alot in Singapore. But it's all good. at least i get to bid him farewell for the last time.

i've stopped going into Facebook for awhile. it's pretty depressing see friends leaving condolences on his wall. he is a good guy.

i was lamenting to Redbabe the other day. How come nice ppl die young and bad ppl (like that stupid serial cab rapist) havent drop dead yet?

i do not have many recent memories of Jeff as the last time i saw him was CNY 2009 and that also a brief encounter at a restaurant. before that, it was sometime end of 2008 before Jading left for Shanghai.

My memories of Jeff were mostly our secondary school days and that is also fading from me. i dont wanna sound like a hypocrite on how close we were coz that was 17yrs ago and things has changed. but i do know that he is a nice guy from the brief encounters we have had in that 17yrs after school.

he will still be missed by me. and i am still sorry for being a bitch to him. i apologized to him that nite when i was at his wake and i hope he knows i am sorry.

his passing has been a wake up call to me. i've made peace with my family and i've sent sms to ppl that i care to apologize (but no one reply me - which i am not gonna pursue coz i've done my part and it's up to them now)

as for my master plan. it's down in the drain. cannot la... i've realized i've not live enough yet. i am building a longer bucket list to fulfill.

kong kong suffered another 2 mild strokes on wednesday and got hospitalized. he has a new accessory on him now - a tube thru his nose for feeding. he is now solely on liquid diet. he has lost all the joys in his life and i seriously wonder if he wish is dead or something.

no, i m not being mean/evil/bitchy. he is a man of super ego. i m pretty sure he is very miserable now. i m just wondering if he secretly wish he is dead or something.

was making plans to drive back to visit him, but murphy's condition is not so optimistic as well. need to send him to hospital before i can decided anything.

i will be making a trip back to kluang anyway on the 1st weekend of july for the MOAR thingie. yes, i really am trying to make peace.

i m exhausted. really seriously exhausted. i just wish to sleep for a long long long long time.

brain aint working that well due to the lack of sleep. i shall end here now.

Of small cow, finger and red indians...

i actually have quite a few things in my mind that i wish to jot down....

but fearing that jotting it down will jinx it, i cant write about it yet.

family wise, another drama happened. i think it's never ending. why still wanna come bothering me when i already made myself clear to stay out of my life completely and dont contact me anymore? why still call me up every other month to harrass me??

small cow. now that's a light moment... i think i should just concentrate on this topic :D further to the blog post below, the following night, small cow and i had another round of crazies in the darkened aircon room (i love dark dark room). i dont remember what happened. but we suddenly started singing all kind of oldies. lol. really really really sing. it's like we were having karaoke on the mattress. and we talked about a lot of stupid crazy stuffs that leaves both of us giggling like mad. then suddenly we realised we were tired and it was already 2ish 3 and we decided to just stop talking and try to sleep - afterall, we need to work the next day! but just few minutes attempting to sleep, we suddenly burst into songs again =.=" yea, we are really that 'fai' :P. then we started talking about how there are many chinese oldies that are actually a cover version of the english songs. Like Beautiful Sunday (Small Cow's mom sang the chinese version whilst i sang the english version when we were driving back from Melaka the other day :D) then i told her, "there, seven lonely days also ma..." then she started singing "Gei wo yi ke wen, ke yi bu ke yi....." and then we started singing again la =.=" and then macam not enough, we used her phone to youtube it =.="

yes, i seriously do agree, when you put Small Cow and Big Cow in the same room, there is no such thing as sleeping early one. :D we are just too sampat for our own good :D

and yes, i think we seriously need to go karaoke to get rid of this singing bug :D

last nite was a break from the silliness coz someone had a 'hot date' :D i went home at around 1ish 2, and she wasnt back yet. i slept at 2.30 and she wasnt back yet. i woke up to pee at around dunno what time, she wasnt back yet. but i know when i woke up at around 5ish 6 to pee, i thought she wasnt back yet, so i used my leg to 'feel' her mattress to see if she is back or not. but i think i 'feel' it too hard, coz i felt like i was kicking her. she was back alre :P

tonite, i... oh wait, i dont wanna jinx it. maybe i will talk about it next week or something. ;)

anyway, this morning whilst i was throning on my porcelaine throne, i started thinking... oh wait, i think that can be a seperate post all together :D

we will be going for our annual company trip again this May. so soon?? you ask? ya lor.... less than a year ago (August last year) we went to Awana Kijal and had fun but extremely tiring trip. This year, everyone vote for somewhere NEARBY and the management has decided on The Eagle Ranch Resort, Port Dickson. and since we will be going country and western, the theme this year will be Wild Wild West (like duh?) and i told lady boss, for my selfish reason, i voted no for the theme coz it's so damn hard to get baju my size leh =.=" and i dont like to play dress up (yes, i m a spoil sport :D) anyway, lady boss came up with a lot of ideas, basically i think i am gonna be a red indian or the fattest Pocahontas around :P so we were joking and laughing about the dress up and we all agree Finger should be a red indian chief coz the chief dont talk much (or at least that's how we see it from those old old movies :D) and so we started to joke around. Here's the sort of profiling of Finger's chief:

Name: Chief No Talk

Chief's dialogues (that we came up with last nite):

"Chief see many people"
"Chief eat now"
"Chief come, chief see, chief no talk"
"Chief drink"
"Chief sees men, chief sees women, chief likes"
"Chief feel wind. chief sees fire (we are planning to have the dress up during our bbq nite)"
"Chief happy"


anyway, to end this post aptly, i shall paste some of my favourite Red Indian jokes :D

Learn it by listening

Two cowboys come upon an Indian lying on his stomach with his ear to the ground. One of the cowboys stops and says to the other, "You see that Indian?" "Yeah," says the other cowboy." Look," says the first one, "he's listening to the ground. He can hear things for miles in any direction." Just then the Indian looks up. "Covered wagon," he says, "about two miles away. Have two horses, one brown, one white. Man, woman, child, household effects in wagon." "Incredible!" says the cowboy to his friend. "This Indian knows how far away they are, how many horses, what color they are, who is in the wagon, and what is in the wagon. Amazing!"The Indian looks up and says, "Ran over me about a half hour ago."

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A little Red Indian boy asked his father, the big chief and witch doctor
of the tribe, "Papa, why is it that we always have long names, while
the white men have shorter names - Bill, Tex or Sam, for example?"

His father replied, "Look, son, our names represent a symbol, a sign, or
a poem for our culture --not like the white men, who
repeat their names from generation to generation. Also, it is part of
our makeup that in spite of everything, we survive.

For example, your sister's name is Small Romantic Moon Over The Lake,
because on the night she was born, there was a beautiful moon reflected
in the lake.

Then there's your brother, Big White Horse of the Prairies, because he
was born on a day that the big white horse who gallops over the prairies
of the world appeared near our camp and is a symbol of our capacity to
live and the life force of our people. It's very simple and easy to
understand.
Do you have any other questions, Little Broken Condom Made in China ?"

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Here's one about the old native American who wanted a loan for $500.
The banker pulled out the loan application, "What are you going
to do with the money?"
"Take jewelry to city and sell it," was the response.
"What have you got for collateral?"
"Don't know collateral."
"Well that's something of value that would cover the cost of
the loan.Have you got any vehicles?"
"Yes, 1949 Chevy pickup."
The banker shook his head, "How about livestock?"
"Yes, I have a horse."
"How old is it?"
"Don't know, has no teeth."
Finally the banker decided to make the $500 loan.
Several weeks later the old man was back in the bank. He pulled
out a roll of bills, "Here to pay." he said.
He then handed the banker the money to pay his loan off
"What are you going to do with the rest of that money?"
"Put in teepee."
"Why don't you deposit it in my bank," he asked.
"Don't know deposit."
"You put the money in our bank and we take care of it for you.
When you want to use it you can withdraw it."
The old Indian leaned across the desk, "What you got for
collateral?"

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NAVAJO MESSAGE TO THE MOON

When NASA was preparing for the Apollo Project, it
took the astronauts to a Navajo reservation in
Arizona for training.

One day, a Navajo elder and his son came across the
space crew walking among the rocks. The elder, who
spoke only Navajo, asked a question.

His son translated for the NASA people: "What are
these guys in the big suits doing?" One of the
astronauts said that they were practicing a trip to
the moon. When his son relayed this comment the
Navajo elder got all excited and asked if it would
be possible to give to the astronauts a message to
deliver to the moon.

Recognizing a promotional opportunity when he saw
one, a NASA official accompanying the astronauts
said, "Why certainly!" and told an underling to get
a tape recorder.

The Navajo elder's comments into the microphone were
brief. The NASA official asked the son if he would
translate what his father had said. The son listened
to the recording and laughed uproariously. But he
refused to translate.

So the NASA people took the tape to a nearby Navajo
village and played it for other members of the
tribe. They too laughed long and loudly but also
refused to translate the elder's message to the
moon.

An official government translator was summoned.
After he finally stopped laughing the translator
relayed the message:

"WATCH OUT FOR THESE ASSHOLES. THEY HAVE COME TO
STEAL YOUR LAND."

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Some hostile Indians finally captured the Lone Ranger and told him that they were going to kill him. They decided that since he was such a great adversary, they would grant him one last wish. When told this, the Lone Ranger whistled loudly, and from out of nowhere galloped his horse Silver. The Lone Ranger whispered something in the horse's ear, and the horse took off a great speed. The Indians were curious and waited to see what happened. Sure enough, about half an hour later, Silver appeared with a gorgeous woman on his back, and he dropped her off in front of the Lone Ranger. So impressed were the Indians that they untied the Lone Ranger, showed him to a teepee, and let him do as he pleased.

A few hours later, the Lone Ranger exited very tired and barely able to stand up. The Indians decided that they would let him regain his strength and execute him the next day.

But the next day came, and the Indians were absolutely amazed at the previous day's spectacle, that they decided to again grant the Lone Ranger one last wish. Again, he whistled for Silver, Silver appeared, the Lone Ranger whispered something in his ear, the horse took off and brought back an even more beautiful woman. Flabbergasted, the Indians again let the Lone Ranger have some privacy with the woman in a tee pee, and again, he was nearly exhausted afterward, unable to walk.

Another day passed, and the Indians decided they needed to see what would happen, so they granted him yet another wish. Again, the Lone Ranger whistled for Silver, and when the horse appeared, the Lone Ranger grabbed him by the neck and yelled at him, "I said, get me a posse!"

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The Lone Ranger and Tonto went camping in the desert. After they got their tent all set up, both men fell sound asleep. Some hours later, Tonto wakes the Lone Ranger and says,

"Kemo Sabe, look towards sky, what you see?"

The Lone Ranger replies, "I see millions of stars."

"What that tell you?" asked Tonto.

The Lone Ranger ponders for a minute then says, "Astronomically speaking, it tells me there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets.

Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo. Time wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three in the morning. Theologically, it's evident the Lord is all-powerful and we are small and insignificant.

Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What's it tell you, Tonto?"

Tonto is silent for a moment, then says, "Kemo Sabe, you dumber then buffalo chip. Someone has stolen tent."

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The Two Indians and the Pole

There were two Indians and a Polish fellow walking along together in the desert, when, all of a sudden, one of the Indians took off and ran up a hill to the mouth of a cave.

He stopped and hollered into the cave... "Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!" and then listened very closely until he heard the answer..."Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!" He then tore off his clothes and ran in to the cave.

The Polish fellow was puzzled and asked the other Indian what that was all about, was that Indian goofy or something.

"No", said the other Indian. "It is mating time for us Indians and when you see a cave and holler, "Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!", and get an answer back, that means that she is in there waiting for you.

Well, just about that time, the other Indian saw another cave. He took off and ran up to the cave, then stopped and hollered, "Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!" When he heard the return, "Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!", off came the clothes and into the cave he goes.

The Pole started running around the desert looking for a cave to find these women that the Indians had talked about. All of a sudden, he looked up and saw this great big cave.

As he looked in amazement, he was thinking, "Man! Look at the size of that cave! It's bigger then the ones that those Indians found. There must really be something really great in this cave!"

Well... he took-off up the hill at a super fast speed. He got in front of the cave and hollered, "Woooooo! Woooooo! Woooooo!" He was just tickled all over when he heard the answering call of, "WOOOOOOOOO! WOOOOOOOOO!! WOOOOOOOOO!!! Off came his clothes and, with a big smile on his face, he raced into the cave.

The next day in the newspaper the head lines read...

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.

.

.

"Naked Pole Run Over By Freight Train!!"

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ok... enough of the jokes.now get back to work! :D

i was pretty emo last nite. about what? a lot of stuffs lor, financial, family, ifer and him.

financial - i dont wanna talk about it.

family - it's always though during festive seasons. i know, i know, it's my choice and i should just live with it. i m living with it but i am also human, i also got feelings one lor. in front of everyone i told them i dont care. i am not celebrating cny. but i do feel shitty inside lor. but there's no turning back alre. the u-turn has been blocked. so i can only go straight ahead.

him - been a long time since i last heard from him. last nite we talked for awhile and all those buried feelings suddenly rushed out. why like this?

ifer - i miss ifer alot. when i was going thru the shitty period with my fam a few years back, her whole family welcomed me like their own. it was a fun trip going back to their kampung in their dad's small little car with all 5 of us cramped into it. and then it was fun taking the bus back to kl. a usual 3.5hrs drive to the kampung takes about 7hrs bus ride back. coz the bus stops every fucking where :D and we were standing for more than half the ride back :D it was fun. when we reached kl, we walked around Petaling St before 3 of us (ifer and her sis and i) head back to my rented room in subang and they stayed a nite and we had fun laughing and joking all the way. i missed that. i also missed the bond that ifer and i shared. :( seriously, most of the crazy stunts i did in my life were with her lor.... when we are craving for jeruk mangga (pickled mangos), we will drive around the nearby neighborhood and steal some raw mangoes :D or when we wanted to get a valid mc for the next day's calculus test coz we didnt study/practice, she wears her bikini and me wearing my pj and sat outside the thunderstorm hoping that we will fall sick :P and walked around ss15 like that :D or... ok... i just realized the rest of the more memorable memories with her are a tad too illegal to blog about it :D it was just illegal crazy stunts that we did not knowing how much trouble we might get into if we got caught :D

so, ya... i think i think too much. time to take out the brains and put it in the freezer again.

i wanted to cry last nite. but i was too fucking exhausted to cry. but i felt like crying... and i scroll thru the songs that i have in my hp... niama! dont have tears inducing songs also!!! so i fed up... today i transferred more tears inducing songs into my phone.... in case i need to cry again :D

seriously, when will the drama ever stop??? so now my brother is getting on my case. judging me, as he does best.

i dont understand why cant they stay the fuck out of my life????

can u believe it? he actually formed his impressions on how i m living my life by my facebook updates. how stupid can he be?

also, seems like he has a problem with ppl living life to the fullest and the fact that i dont have any intentions to get married and have children. like wtf????

just because i m not living a life that they think everyone should live, doesnt mean that i m being irresponsible and dont know how to live my life!

omg... i m so damn fucking pissed!

disowned

i have reached to the point of dont wish to try to justify myself. so whatever you say or whatever you assumed, just go ahead and assume la. as far as i m concerned, i am disowning everyone in the family. dont come and contact me. i have no intentions or whatsoever to have anything to do with you all anymore.

i always feel like i m the black sheep of the family. why? coz my parents loves to talk bad about me in front of the whole relatives. yes, my parents. when all other aunties and uncles praised or bragged about their children, my parents will just talk bad about me. yes, i will never be good enough to be their daughter. i m too ugly to be my mom's daughter (yes, she said that to me before) and i m too useless to be my dad's daughter (yes, he says that me to all the time). but i persevered, coz i do believe i love them coz they are my parents after all. but yesterday's incident is just too much la.

i admit, i m in the wrong for owing banks so much money. but you have to admit, i have not asked u for a single sen to settle my debts. i m still settling it monthly. so you have no fucking rights to come and bombard me, scold me, and even demand illogical demands from me, even tho u are my so called father. and then u go and stab the knife deeper by telling me how all those relatives looks down on me. harlow, whose fault is it? who is the one who finds every single fucking chance he has to bitch about me to all the relatives when i did something wrong? if he dont tell them, will they know and will they look down on me?

aiyah.. malas to write and elaborate anymore la.

yesterday...

... was an emotional roller coaster day for me. but in a good way actually :D

1st(down), i'm still pissed with small cow for being pissed with me for being pissed with her for being pissed with me for being pissed with her.... anyways, it's complicated.

2nd(up), found a fling

3rd(confused), MF added me in FB

4th (shocked & sad), found out that my ex form teacher's son, JJ passed away. We got history with JJ one. damn silly highschool days history la... but overall, dont think he is a nice person. Just feel sad for my teacher, that's all

5th(up up!), Fai and Minger @ Minger's FB :P

and............ the best of it all.....

6th (super up), Mr Pedestal, yup, that guy whom i've always put high up on the pedestal whom we have not spoken in like more than 10 years whom whenever i hear his name or see his name or see him, my heart goes beepopbeepopbeepop, whom, due to my silly antics during schooling days is avoiding me like mad.... SEND ME A FUCKING MESSAGE IN FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

but.... i had a very disturbing dream.

i dont really remember much of it, i know the gist of it was i came back late, my mom got angry and she dragged me to the street and caned me till i was half dead. which honestly speaking, i believe my mom will do that in real life when she is pissed enough.... i think i m psychologically scarred for life from my mom's craziness la...

ok. that's too depressing.

let's talk about MF a lil bit. i realized i m really in love with him coz even with Mr Pedestal sending me a msg, MF is the 1st person whom i wanna share this happy news with. not to gloat or anything, he is just the 1st person i think of when i have something happy to share. but of coz i didnt contact him la! as it is, my asshole got a lot of worms already. dont need to stuff more in :x

oh oh... remember i told you before, i m a social retard? as in like in social gatherings, i will always feel awkward and dont know what to say or do? welp, i was suppose to sign the condolences guestbook for JJ, but i dont know what to write or say leh... i seriously think i am fucked up socially :(

MOAR 2010

Some of my relatives are planning a Mother of All Reunions in 2010 (MOAR 2010). This reunion is for the descendants of my great grandfather (my popo's father), Wong Lip Hon. What happened was, about 2.5yrs ago, some of the uncles (my father's cousins - popo's sisters' children) who has been living overseas for decades decided to plan a reunion after they have gotten more and more relatives in the mailing list. Anyway, Unc. James sent us an email today and i was actually amazed that this MOAR 2010 is really gonna happen! :D Anyway, here's the email:

29th May 2009.
Hello All
Its time to start the process of organizing this big event.Over 2.5 years ago we had mooted the idea of having a reunion for this wonderful Wong family.
It all seem improbable and the talkfest were encouraging but felt distant.
It was liken to Martin Luther King’s famous saying-“I have a dream”.
Well that dream I am please to report to you all is becoming a reality .
With just over a year now to go now we have finally poured some cement to the foundations.We have moved up one gear and as we count down the days we will move up another gear and then to top gear.
We are now only 400 days to the big event.Soon it will be under a year.
We are encouraged to hear from some many relatives to want to be part of the picture and make this event a huge success.Others remains skeptical but its our job folks to convince the extended family members to the merits of this grand reunion .We are hoping that each clan will bring home all their respective family members –all the way down to the wee babies.We want to meet ALL our relatives and have a great party.
We want to celebrate the great Wong family.We want to bring together the last surviving 12 brothers and sisters and pay our respects and celebrate them been together again.
We all need to be there……….too.
We have nearly 400 hundred relatives and with the extended family we are hoping for a big turnout.Its a very big family so lets all do our bit to make it a huge success.
I am aware we are all busy in our respective lives.Work,kids,home duties,taxi driving the kids to Kumon and back etc.So take a break from the Kumonitis and book your holiday to MOAR- 2010.
The event will begin at 9am ,Saturday 3rd July 2010 .It will be an all day event and at night we will adjourn to a big dinner.On Sunday 4th July 2010 , we will be hiring coaches to take us all to Segamat to pay our respects to Kong Kong and Por Por and also to tour Segamat and this will be a day outing.So do book some time off and plan ahead.

3 themes have emerged since MOAR 2010 was mooted.No doubt we will have more themes between now and July next year .
1.Its the great reunion of all the family members.It will be a celebration of our elders and tribute to them.It will be an opportunity to showcase our respective clans.Many clans have not been together for a long time so lets take this opportunity.It will be a great means to meet all the family members we have never met- it will be one hell of a family photo!!.
It will show our younger generation who and what- as they are losing touch with the extended family- as I am.
It will bond us as a family physically,psychologically and spiritually .

2.MOAR will take the opportunity to celebrate the birthdays of our senior members.As we have everyone around-why not celebrate their birthdays too.
So we are celebrating any family members that turn 80 and 70 in the year 2010.
To date we will be celebrating the 80th birthday of 5th Aunty and the 70 th birthdays of LFC and MC.
Anyone else please let us know and we will include into the plans.

3.Charity fundraiser-
Whilst raising funds I have been asked as to what we will do with any surplus money after we have paid off the expenses of the MOAR celebration.
Well you know I reflected long and hard .
Recently I had the wonderful opportunity to meet briefly with TT in Melbourne at E's wedding(TKP’s daughter).
She talked about her evangelical work and charity projects and it did inspire meShe gave me the inspiration .
Now ,the Wong family have a long history of pastoral calling.Our foreparents had pastoral blood in them.
Our present flock we see many family members engrossed in pastoral care- Pastor VW,Pastor KF, Pastoe WW, T and T,A.L to name a few.
We are a family of charity and benovelence.Such fine spirit should not go unnoticed.We need to build on their good work and do more.

So, the plan is that we plan set up an account with leftover money from MOAR and we will donate to charity as appropriate- one I can think of is A.L’s work with the Children’s Home- for abandoned children (More later).This way, no one need to worry whether the surplus money will go into someone pocket or how to divi it up.


Now some update:-
As mentioned earlier we have laid the foundation finally- the dream is now a reality.
After exhaustive investigations of a few facilities we finally booked the following.

1.Venue:
Day Setting:-
Please to announce we have secured a wonderful site in Kluang for the 3rd July 2010.
It will be at the Oasis- at the Canossian Convent.Situated on the hilltop,it has impressive grounds.It is big,secure-allfenced in-so children safe.It is private- no rif rafs nearby to stir up problems.The grounds are spacious,serene and tranquil.For those who know Kluang- its along the Batu Pahat Road – at the traffic lights near where U.T and A.L live.So transport is no issue.
It will easily handle over 300-400 people and have enough facilities to hold our MOAR.There are big gardens for the children and caterers to feed us.There are covered areas for sitting and kitchens/dining rooms.It has a first floor so this will be ideal for the photographer to take the must have photo from top down..
The drive way is massive with ample parking spots for all our cars and pick up by the coaches on Sunday to Segamat.
This place is truly children friendly so parents please be assured- bring all the troops –do not leave home with the inlaws to mind –we all want to see your kids.- the future.
There are PA systems .
We will not be cramped in and will have ample space and we can have the place to ourselves as we’ve booked out the whole facilty- including wait for it – accommodation for nearly 140 people.This is great as the majority can all congregate there without having to leave the premises.We have booked out all the rooms- this will be paid from the expense accounts.I will post pictures of the facilities later.You will not be disappointed.

Night Venue:-
This will be held at the same ballroom that Lisa recently –at BCB or the premier hotel in Kluang- Prime City Hotel- Other facilities I checked out did not meet our requirements as we need a facility to hold 300-400 guests and have Audio/visual facilities for VW our MC to facilitate the night proceedings and also the birthday singing etc.
I will also post their brochure soon or you can visit their website by Googling –Prime city./Kluang.

2.Accomodation:-
We have booked out the Oasis on Sat and have made provisions for those coming later and staying for a few more days to stay- the facility are aware.This will cater for nearly 140 people with a mixture of Double rooms/Single rooms and Dormitaries x 2 .I’ve checked it out and they are very clean and comfortable .Some rooms have air con and all have fans- all have toilet and shower facilities which is great.It is spotless.The caretaker assures me that she will spruce it up more before we come!

Some will stay in various relatives houses in Kluang- we have a range here.
We have no doubt many will also squeeze into the relos lodging.Nil problems here.

The rest may choose to stay in a variety of hotels in Kluang.They vary from cheap to Prime City- more upmarkey- again I will attach Prime City and Anika Hotel as an example.
They are ok for many.We have also negotiated from Prime City 30% off the listed rates so a good offer.Got a pool/spa/gym etc and at the same location where we are having the dinner.
A.L states that nearer the time she will go and negotiate for 50% off as for L’s wedding they manage to secure same.
3.Transport:-
We will hire mini buses or private taxis to ferry relos around town.At night we may even hire coaches.
Our own relos cars will also be in service.
The Segamat trip on Sunday will be by coaches.This will be organized by R and all we have to do is to turn up.The day will be taken care off including the makan.


4.Food:-
The important item.
Well no worries-taken care off.
For the day events we will have caterers bringing in various types of food at various time of the day- this will include Chinese/Malay/Indian and Anglo-KFC if needed.All the Malaysian delight will hopefully be sourced closer the time.
We are hoping to get a few stalls set up- like satay , Ramly burger, roti chanai store.More can be arranged later.

Just a footnote- any left over food will not go to waste,we will take it immediately to the Children’s Home immediately so that there are no waste.

Of course we will get the local Kluang favourites too.

For the night event at Prime City in the Matahari Ballroom ,we have mapped out a menu already to suit all including children and will be open for negotiations but it is good.


5.The Big Picture
I’ve approached the local photographic shops in Kluang- they should be able to meet our needs for a very reasonable price and will be booked closer the time.They will be hired for the 2 days and will take pics on the go.They will put it in CD for us- can also be down in time for the night dinner if required.We will also use our own relatives- our hobby photographers.

6.Activities :-
To be organized but we will not be short of helpers-local judging from the response I’m getting .Thank You.
We have so much talents within the family ,I,m sure the we will not be short of entertainment .
We will try and set up wading pools for kids to play and soak: electronic game- Wii ‘s or Playstations and kids activities throughout the day.We will appoint a kids coordinator.
We have DJ’s/singers/music writers/entertainers/comedians in the family that can light up the gathering.Music will be great.Karaoke will be considered naturally.
We have medics/nurses that can take care of the medical emergencies.
Panadols/Aspirins/Decorub/Tiger Balm will be provided if required.
Mosquito repellants will also be available should the mossies wants to join in the fun.
We even have workcover relos that can oversee the occupational health and safety of the proceedings.
We have event organizers/relos capable of handling big crowds and doing the MC work.

7. Equipment:-
We will hire the equipment needed locally- nil problems.Chairs/Tables/entertainment equipment/AV/ tvs etc.


8.Finances:-
The war chest is now standing at nearly $20,000 already.
This is great .
With more benefactors in the coming year we will well and truly exceed expectations.

The account for MOAR has been opened as you are aware and we have
A.L and Papa Cow as joint signatories to manage the account and expenses.They will keep a record of things.
For those who wishes to donate to the fund I have the details:-
Name: TKM and Papa Cow
Bank: OCBC (Overseas Chinese Banking Corporation)
Branch: Kluang
Account Number:- 715-23xxxx-x
Saving Account.

For electronic transfer the swift code is : OCBCMYKL.

Relos wishing to make a donation please notify A.L- her mobile is :-
01x2xx70xx.
This is to ensure she can keep an accurate account.Thanks.

As stated earlier- any surplus funds after all payments for MOAR expenses will be used to set up a charity account- maybe we can start a Wong charity fund.

9. Clan Identification
We will have some form of ID but R came up with a good idea- each clan will have a coloured ribbon of their own.So all the same clan members will have the same coloured ribbon which will hold an ID tag listing their name/generation etc-more details TBA.

So now that we have something concrete ,we will be calling upon the clans to rev up the family and start to make plans.We will be calling on clan members to come up with numbers in the coming months so that the organizers can book the numbers for catering/function as necessary.
Can someone also please make contact with the Hong Kong and China clan to secure their needs to come to MOAR.Accomodation is secured.let us know.

That’s all for now.

Cheers
Unc.James

PS.Will try and post pics of Oasis in Geni.

omg! i cant wait to attend! so much has been done! :D

updates

i m back!!! back!!! back!!! :D

so much to write. so much to bitch. so much to rant. but dunno where to start or how to start.

here's what i emailed myself from my phone:

1st message to myself:

Recap day 1, emotional and psychological abuse left me crying myself to sleep. Suicide feeling is back. Day 2 @ 6.48am. Was told to wake up at 6am coz leaving the house at 7am. But he is not even awake yet! Is this some kinda joke?! Mom, who hasn't sleep, woke him up and reprimanded him. Welp, at least there is a tiny little silver lining for that matter! I don't know if i m strong enough to go thru the whole week. Will update more later

2nd message to myself:

Day 2 @ 12pm, so far everything is pretty straight forward, business wise, that is. But then again, today is a sunday. So i'll see wat happens tomorrow la. Going to makan lunch with they all today for mother's day. Going to highway restaurant! Yay! :-) Damn hungry la. Will update more later.

3rd message to myself:

Day 2 @ 20.47 - Omg. I m so Damn Fucking bored! Went lunch with the fam... Either i was Fucking depressed / stressed or i was really hungry. Ate 2 big bowls of rice with those yummilicious dishes :-p so anyway, came back supposingly to bathe then go over to popo's place to play gin, but i ended up falling asleep. Slept for about 5 hrs! Yea! Damn tiring! Tomolo another long day! Anyway, gtg now. Dinner beckoning and then gotta sleep again... Gotta wake up early tomolo - again! :-( really dunno how to get thru the next 7 days! :-(

what happened after that? life got tougher. imagine being nagged at every single waking hours you have with him. then imagine the content of the nags range from how useless and spendthrift i m to how incompetent i am to how poor thing he is. no i dont pity him at all. the 1st day i alre see the problem with the company. i gave suggestion, he dont wanna listen. 2nd day went to the auditor's firm, the auditor asked for my opinion, before i can talk, he interrupted me. so i made face and the auditor scolded him for not giving me chance to talk. so i gave my suggestion again and she told me that's EXACTLY the point. see? i m not stupid u know? but of coz being the stupid illogical him who thinks he knows best, he refused to listen. and then when we left the auditor's office, he has the cheek to bitch about the auditor. i think he is in love with his own voice. he cant seems to stop fucking talking!!!! then the 3rd day & 4th day basically i just studied the accounts and the process of the company. easy peasy. 5th day went to Muar to meet our client. which causes a drama from popo. long story. to sum things up:

drama with dad, when the drama with him ends, popo decided to start a drama with both dad and i. and if that's not enough, mommy started to menopause drama with dad. then like all these dramas is not enough, ah ma started to drama with mommy. fucking taiwanese soap opera!!!

the daily routine is like this:

6am - wake up, get ready to go out
6.30am - smoke 2 sticks of ciggies whilst waiting for him to get ready
7am - leave house to collect daily newspaper and have breakfast
8am - reach the shop and started to count money
1pm - close shop
1.30pm - lunch either at home or popo's place
2pm - banking
2.30pm - go back home to keep the money
3pm - 5pm - running errands either at company's secretary place, auditor, meet up with other dealers to strike a deal or just yum char with 3-4 different ppl (meaning to say 3-4 different session of yumchar, meaning to say 3-4 glasses of beverages in the span of 2 hrs)
5pm - go home sleep
7pm - dinner
8pm - 10pm - rot in the room doing nothing.
10pm - sleep

wanna know how fucking illogical my dad is? he says that ice cold drinks contains more sugar. just coz some idiot told him that when he saw me ordering ice cold drink under the hot fucking sun. so my dad started his nag about me getting diabetes and all the crap. so to appeased him, i ordered ALL MY DRINKS KOSONG!! yes, no sugar. and he can still bitch about me. then we passed by a durian stall, pls bear in mind, it's been ages since i last touch durian coz it's too damn fucking expensive! so i just blurt out.... durians! i wanna eat!!! and then he started his case on me saying it's fattening and that i m dying of obesity. then i told him i needed a loan from him to fix my car in kluang coz it's cheaper there... i told him on sunday and scolded me about me being poor and spendthrift. so i didnt bring up the subject. then on a fucking thursday, he scolded me for not repairing my car in kluang and want to waste money to do it in kl. see how indignant i feel??? then he started to bitch about me to mommy and popo and whoever who listens to him saying that i dont wanna do up my car in kluang. harlow?? i alre told him it takes 3-4 working days for the car to be fixed on sunday. and he scolded me. and then thursday only tell me to do it in kluang! how can?? i going back kl on sunday le!!! oh oh oh... friday, it was a long long day. we went to Kahang (think east) - 20mins of winding road from kluang, to meet our ex customer, hoping to woo her back to us. after that, we went further east to Jemaluang to go down south to Kota Tinggi to meet another customer, Jemaluang to Kota Tinggi is about 1hrs of winding road drive. and in that 1hr of him driving, he nagged at me NON STOP. serious shit! he seriously loves his voice a hell lot!!! even when i kept on changing cd to listen and sing a long, he will lower the volume to nag at me. and then i will increase the volume and then he will lower the volume again and again and again alll the way to Kota Tinggi. =.=" then from Kota Tinggi to Kluang, i was driving and he continue to nag me alllllllllllllllllll the way!!!!!!!!!!!! the best part was, he repeat himself like a fucking broken record. the inti pati is always the same, i m spendthrift, i m useless, he dont think i m good enough, he thinks i am stupid, he thinks i am not capable, he thinks i am a sampah masyarakat.

yea. can i report this to AWAM for psychological abuse ah?

wanna know the best and funniest part? on sunday, the day i m coming back to kl, i refused to go to his shop coz i wanna rest enough to travel up to kl. so at around 10 something, he called and ask me to tell mommy not to cook, we are going out to makan. and then he tried to be nice to me and ask me which restaurant i wanna go. me, being bitchy told him there is no point of telling him where i wanna go coz he wont go anyway (i wanted to go highway, and he is always complaining the food is expensive). wanna know why he suddenly so 'nice'? coz he wanted me to tell him when is the next time i am going back. i promised to go back at least once a month to check the account on the condition that the company is paying for everything.

oh oh, did i tell u that he didnt wanted to pay me my 1 week salary at all?? he told me he will save the money for me. like wtf??? i was so angry. but i didnt argue with him coz he went straight on the offensive mode and i decided to ignore him and give him cold shoulder. i felt so damn fucking cheated! so what did i do? i told my mom. and my mom got pissed and told him off. :D and my mom told me not to come back and help him. she say i will kill myself much earlier if i work for him. seems like my mom knows me damn well right? :P

wat else to bitch about ah? erm.... i dont know la. i know most of what i wrote doesnt really make sense coz i am jumping from here to there and then to here again. but i just wanna vent all my frustrations. i m going crazy alre!!!

anyway, came back on sunday and met small cow for karaoke. i didnt enjoy myself much. dont know leh... just feel so drained.

went to watch sell out yesterday. not bad.

did something really stupid last nite. sms-es were flying everywhere me-mf-me and smallcow-me-smallcow and i was semi asleep. so i ended up kept on sending wrong sms to wrong ppl. until i fed up and called mf and small cow. damn stupid and annoying.

conclusion? mf is belanja-ing small cow and i karaoke this sunday. but hor... small cow, u dont feel offended ah.... but hor... i wish to spend time with him alone. wonder if he is free for dinner sometime this week?

got broadband alre!! but with pentium III (or rather, as some know it all uncle call it, pension III) and i think 384ram.... s-l-o-w......

i've got so much to bitch about. but i m too malas to bitch anymore. all i know is, i cant wait to go back kl tomolo! yes! i m finally released from here!!! :D

am too pissed and unhappy and depressed to blog now. i m emotionally, physically and psychologically drained.

i know i havent been updating for days.... :D anyway, lots has happened....the 1st few days here were dramatic, i even cry myself to sleep the 1st nite... now, i m too exhausted to feel anything. life here is so damn fucking dead! sleep at 10pm, wake up at 6am daily. 1st day of work with dad was on a sunday. yep, sun fucking day. when everyone is sleeping on a sunday, i was working.

but honestly speaking, my dad's company is really in deep shit la... dont have a proper system, no proper records of money coming in or going out and then he can come and tell me he dont know where is his money.... =.="
anyway, i cant type much for now. coz i need to audit the company's accounts. lots to do.....

depression mode: fucking on

pissed off again. fucking chicken!

why am i always surrounded by chickens??? omg! what happened? welp, my parents are coming over today and my dad ask me to call his nieces out for dinner. so i called her. and she told me kaima and kaiyeh is in town and she say let's all go new paris for dinner together gather so that we can share the cost. which is fine with me. then she say ask my dad to call her dad aka kaiyeh. i called my dad and told him and ask him to call kaiyeh aka his brother. now fast forward a few hours later, i called my dad and he told me kaiyeh told him he dont know anything and check with chicken. chicken is the one planning. then i called her and she FUCKING DENIED SUGGESTING ANYTHING AND FUCKING DENIED THAT WE ARE HAVING DINNER AT NEW FUCKING PARIS!!! then she continue lamenting how difficult it is to organize since there are 12 of them there and that it's complicated and all those crap la. which actually pisses me off coz if it's so god damn fucking mah fan, then dont fucking suggest in the fucking place and then denied it! tiu! fucking fed up wei! so i fed up and just tell her, forget it, no need to meet then.

mental note to myself: get rid of all the chickens around me!

i m seriously sick and tired of all these shit la. so u all know i got summoned by my dad to go back to kluang to help him, he wanted me to go back for 3 mths, i only got 1 week leave.

and you all know how much i dread going back. i dont wanna give up my life in the city for a small town. it's ridiculous.

i dont wanna go back becoz:

1. i have a set of crazy parents - they are like pepetually in menopause
2. kluang is too small for me
3. no freedom

so anyway, that said, lemme rant about what just happened less than 30mins ago. my dad called me as usual. telling me that there is no point for me to go back coz i will ruin his business anyway. saying that i shouldnt INSIST on helping him, he takes years to built up the business and he dont want me to cause it to close down. yes. he fucking said that. i kept quiet at first. i didnt wanna argue with him. then he continue nagging about how incompetent he think i am. yes. he thinks i m incompetent. which pisses me off big time. i asked him, why didnt he think properly before calling me and inconveniencing me in taking leave and talking to my boss??? and if he think i am so bad, why the hell did he call me in the 1st place to ask me to go back???? why must he create all these dramas in my life??? in the 1st place, i am NEVER interested in his business! why force me to go back and now before i go back, come and drama at me telling me he has no confident in me and that he thinks i am gonna ruin his business???

omg. how the fuck am i suppose to survive the fucking 9 days???

love hate relationship...

... with my bro

as i said, it's my mom's bday today. so i sms-ed my bro and sis-in-law in usa to remind them. the sms i sent reads like this:

It's mummy's birthday today! And she is all alone coz pa is in thailand! Pls call her to make her happy.

and here's the email he sent:

Big Cow,

I received your SMS 10-15 mins ago. In the future, please don't send SMS unless it is truly an emergency as SMS cost me even though I am the recipient and not the sender. FYI, I did not pay for an unlimited SMS plan. I do check emails regularly.

I am still in Kansas and won't be back in California till late in Friday (3/27) evening.

I will try to call Mom over the weekend.

Thanks.

Brother Cow.

i m pissed. i am still thinking of how to reply him. so far what i've written is:

noted.

mummy's bday is today. not this weekend.

she is sad as it is being alone on her bday. calling her on the actual day is the least her children can do.

but knowing my bro, he will get all sensitive and start a war at me. what i am so pissed about is that all our lives, mummy loves him the most. everytime we get into trouble, i get the beatings, not him. and he is an OLDER brother somemore! she even admitted that she is being unfair. but then again, since my dad loves me more, it's ok. that's one of the main reason why i m not that close to my mom. but this.... this is too much la.....

edit: i emailed that to him.

today...

... is my mom's bday. and i m still contemplating if i should call her. you see, every year, without fail, i will call her to wish her happy bday and without fail, she will scream and shout at me making me cry. so yea. i m still wondering if i should call her.

no, i never claim that my family is normal. i grew up in a dysfunctional family. and during my teenage rebellious years, i was a nightmare that parents cant control, or rather dont have much rights to control. now that i've grown older and age is creeping eeriely fast on my parents, i've insaf. i mean how many more years do i have left to spend my quality times with them? so whenever they pisses me off, i bite my tongue (yes, i do that like 70% of the times i am with them). i think indirectly they are giving me a taste of my own medicine :P seriously. ask my cousins, i was everyone's worst nightmare :D

so yea, still thinking if i should call her. :P