i had a strange sweet dream about you just now. it was strange coz i didnt really understand what were you talking about whilst we were making out... and when i woke up briefly, i actually understand. i slept back, but i couldnt get you back in my dream.

now that i am fully awake, i cant stop thinking about you. i wanted to call you, but i just cant recall your number anymore :(

weird dream....

.... i dreamt this morning that Minger and i went to Ruby's Resort with Redbabe and her husband. We played a new version of ginrummy. using 3 decks of cards and apparently Minger and Redbabe are experts in this game and they were teaching us 2 noobs in how to play.

At the same time, i accidentally called Rumba as Sunshine and Rumba merajuk at me and ignore me =.="

i felt bad so i keep on stroking Rumba (she is a very very super cute dog... her eyes can talk to you one! :P) and sayang her.

Dun ask me how can i play card games and sayang Rumba nonstop. apparently in my dreams i can :D

i suddenly got jolted outta my dream and look at the time. OH SHIT! 9.15AM!! i am so damn fucking late for work!

Automatically William Tell Overture came into my mind and i super kancheong-ing got ready for work.... i slowed down abit and realised i dont really need to care if i m late or not leh :D

Conclusion? I think it's high time i bring Minger to Ruby's Resort and it's high time Redbabe and i should plan to go together gather!! :D

Very eventful...

...weekend.. :D

Friday

Met up with the karchengs for Baby Zen's (decided to name him that coz his Chinese name is so....Zen :P) full moon dinner at Spicy Crab, Kota Kemuning. The bloody crab damn fucking spicy until all our lips swollen =.=" and to think i m the queen of eating chilli!! anyway,left the office on the dot so that i can spend some quality time with my darling, Chanel :D she is sooooooo cute and i really love her to bits!! :D after dinner, rushed over to Green Box at Bukit Tinggi for karaoke session with the colleagues. dont really enjoy it. but it was ok la.

Saturday

Went Subway lunch with Minger at Subang Airport coz we have not utilize the Feb coupon yet :D after lunch, i decided i need my dosage of 'pick me up' and forced minger to teman me makan chocotop :D really really good pick me up :D went home with a lighter heart and mood :D

Got ready for Ronnie & Adeline wedding immediately as i sux at make up and i needed time to make up :P LM came over to pick me up at 5.30pm coz we expected to jam all the way to Flamingo Hotel. See see, we memang jam all the way, got over shot and went into KL city and then turn back to Ampang =.=" when we arrived, we were just on time =.="

as you all know, i m not a wedding person. i dont do weddings. but i enjoyed this wedding tremendously, maybe coz i met so many friends there. even found out a long lost irc friend was there (minger sms-ed me to inform me). Got to know one of the ex-colleague better and it was fun la - despite the horrendous karaoke sessions by those aunties and uncles which makes it harder for us to talk. My table consist of all the ex colleagues from itt so it was really really fun. :D food wise, erm... i only like the chicken dish :P took a lot of really silly pictures which were warned by a colleague who aspire to be the next CEO that i m not allowed to post it up anywhere... not even FB.... :P the night ended with a planned gathering end of March. Which i m soooooo looking forward to! :D

Sunday

Woke up feeling ravenous... i think i ate too much the previous night (my friend told me one, if i eat too full the previous nite and sleep, i will wake up more hungry one). Met Donny at SS14 to pick him up to go Klang for the yummy Pan mee. i think i saw Jon-Ifer-Jon. Jon, my ice and weed and a place to layan ice and weed supplier, Jon. We kept on looking at each other. I m not sure if it's really him. But from the body language and look, he looks like Jon. No, i didnt approach him. I was in my car waiting for Donny and he was in the BKT shop. Anyway, the lunch was superb :D We went to the famous pai kut place to tapau the minced meat fried meatballs before we proceed to the Berkeley's pan mee place. Waited for close to 1hr before the food were served :D after pan mee, drove back to pass minger the food. on the way back, Donny Ang suddenly say he wants to bring me go sing karaoke 'one of these days' and since i was free yesterday, i told him, let's do it today after froyo then! :D he wanted to back out after that but i wouldnt let him :P coz it wasnt the 1st time he said that to me ;) so after the orgasmic froyo, we went over to Neway Subang and sang till we got bored (4.5hrs) :D we tarik so many cows up the tree!! :P after karaoke, Donny Ang wanted to go for coffee. It was almost 11pm already and i didnt want. so i dropped him at his car and went back and talked to small cow for awhile before falling asleep.

had really really really weird dream last nite. it was really funny and bizarre. Dreamt that 5cm come and tell me he loves me in so much tenderness and i started to burst out laughing.... :P told him and the rest of the colleagues today and we had a great laugh over it :P

i also dreamt of owning a BB Torch. no thanks to Mr Proper! i want a BB Torch!! anyone wanna donate money to my Tabung Kebajikan BB Torch? It's really a charity for the unfortunate (me!) :D. but seriously, this is something i m planning to get by hook or by crook la. so gonna start saving... AFTER my auntie ruby trip in June :P

Also dreamt of the topics Mr Proper and i talked about that nite at the wedding. of love and relationships and marriage. it was really a weird dream. i think i woke up shouting in frustrations a bit then went back to sleep.

i think i sang too much yesterday la. damn a lot of drama in my dream :P

weird weird dreams

i had the weirdest dream this morning between 8.05am to 8.30am.

i dreamt that minger and i were at the luxurious seaside hotel / resort and i thought it's the Four Seasons. But after some googling, i realized it's The Shutters at Santa Monica Beach. I've heard of this place before, never been there nor seen the picture before. Somehow it appear in my dream. The funny part was, there was a huge storm and 5cm were there too and i asked him tsunami happening soon issit? and then he went to this lcd touch screen monitor thingie and showed me the world map, satelite view, and used his hand to move the screen and show me where the tsunami started from... (apparently japan) and while gliding the screen, i saw a palm shaped and footprint shaped archipelago - supposingly Philippines (weird, i know). then the next thing is know, the storm got worst and the wind was so strong that we almost flew away. i crawled over to where minger is and got her to hold on tight to the pillar. then i saw the opposite 2 storey building that look like my ex highschool which was constructed using some kinda old school concrete that's meant to last for centuries. we all ran with all our might to the building and i can see the tsunami closing in... right when we are about to reach the entrance.....

























i woke up =.="

dont know wat's with these weird dreams lately. the last dream was kena chased by giant turtles =.="

I dreamt that i succumb to pressure and blogged out my side of the story. i dreamt that i tried to convinced her friends what a bitch she is.

and when i woke up, i feel pissed coz i feel that i shouldnt have tried so hard, they are really not worth it at all.

do i wanna blog out my side of the story? it will be a looooooooooooooooooong post if i do.

McDonald's in Heaven

had another weird dream this morning. I dreamt that Lady Boss and i were both on the way to the heaven gate somewhere in Shah Alam. the gate was visible on my 3 o'clock and on my 12 o'clock was the wall to enter heaven. beyond the wall i saw this huge ass McDonald's drive thru which is all golden in color. and i remember exclaiming, "wah... here also got McD!" and so we turn to our 3 o'clock to look at the gate to heaven. and i asked my Lady Boss if we wanna go thru or not. she said no and we should turn around and turn around we did. then i woke up.

weird...

the good news is, minger and small cow when u guys are old and finally died and gone to heaven, you can still get your happy food there :"D

weird dreams

i dream every night. without fail. and most of the dreams are weird and dramatic.last nite's dream was about me not making things clear with him. i didnt really want to tell him: hey, we are off! i wanted to just do the silent break. not contacting him and not meeting him. but last nite's dream makes me realized i should make things clear. i dreamt that i went movies with him and suddenly Pet Pet (whom, in my dream were suppose to be the new guy in my life - funny how Pet Pet comes into my dream when i havent seen him in ages! :D) was sitting next to me as well. so we ended up talking before the show started and caught the jokes in the movie when others didnt catch it and laughed together. whilst that psycho was just sitting quietly watching the movie. after the movie, i told Pet Pet i need to leave with the psycho and he got upset and then the psycho got upset and i woke up =.="

i woke up feeling weird and decided that today is the day i will make things clear with him. i didnt wanna meet him face to face coz he is psychotic so i was left with either sms or email. both small cow and minger suggested email coz that will make it seems cold and he will give up easier and no need to waste my phone bill on him :P and so i did. the 1st email i drafted was pretty harsh and minger advised me to edit it coz that fella is psychotic he might come over and attack me or something. so i typed this:

Hi Psycho,

Things are not working out between you and i. You are not the type of guy for me. Please look for someone else.

Big Cow

short and sweet, no? i hope he wont come drama on me la... =.="

conversation with small cow...

... as most of you know, small cow is currently staying with me for a few months whilst her personal issues are being sorted out. recently, due to the stupid hot weather, small cow moved into my room to sleep in the aircon-ed room.

and usually before we sleep (she is working afternoon shift now so we sleep almost the same time), we will talk or twitter or surfnet or play games on the phone whilst chatting.

so small cow was telling me about she telling Guy Ash about my dream (i dreamt recently that small cow and Guy Ash got 2 sets of twins :D) and then dont know how we change the subject to what if i suddenly get married (gasp!) and have kids (shudders!)? will she be the godmama to my kids? :D and she kept quiet for a looooong time.... then suddenly she said: "oookay lor... (in the most reluctant tone)... but i dont wanna take care of them one ah" and i went "i also dont want you to take care of them la!" and then she went all hurt and ask me why?? and i told her "if you babysit them, hell will break lose lor. i can imagine me coming home from my date nite with my hubby and see my children bouncing from wall to wall super hyper" and she started to giggle non stop and ask "why ah?" and i told her la, i can imagine her feeding my kids with all kind of sugary stuffs like a cupful of sugar, lollipops, cotton candy, marshmallows etc etc... and we started to laughed non stop over all kind of silly situations. and i told her, if i have kids, i am gonna feel my kids with Sponge Bob Square Pants everyday to make them stupid :D

yes, i super fail in parenting :D

and yes, it's really a gasping moment that i m actually entertaining thoughts of marriage and kids!

and no, we are not sharing the same bed ah, she pulled the mattress in so now my room is basically covered with mattresses :D

oh and yea, i just found out last nite that i am a total failure when it comes to cooking hard boiled eggs. :D i can cook dishes and rice and what nots and when it comes to hard boiled eggs, i failed :D but at the end the end result of the failed egg is pretty nice la... here's big cow's way of cooking hard boiled eggs:

fill the pot with water in masuk 2 eggs and boil it for a few minutes, then, feeling over confident that the eggs are cooked (my logic is, eggs cook damn fast one ma, no meh?), remove the pot from the stove and pour out the water and run the eggs under cold water. use a spoon to slowly crack the shells. by this time, each crack will go toing-toing-toing. you will suspect that the eggs are not cooked yet. so you will fill up the pot with water again and reboil the eggs. by this time, you will get fed up and decided to take a ciggie break. then, your guardian angel in the form of small cow will come to your rescue and watch the eggs for you. after the ciggie break, you decided to fuck care and just proceed to remove the eggs and then to your amazement, the eggs is cooked perfectly! the yolk is not overly cooked to the extend of being too powdery and the whites are super toing-ing :D nais! :D

and that, my friends, is how you cook hard boiled eggs, big cow way =.="

super fail, i know :D

oh oh... the night before, whilst small cow were bathing, she suddenly heard the crazy next door neighbour went: nnggggggggggg haaarrrrniiiiieeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! again! :D she stopped doing anything to eavesdrops, which i think is damn funny lor... :D so sampat...

oh oh... i also ask her about her and guy ash. i feel like macam there's some sparks like that one leh... then she told me let nature takes it's course. so i started to ask her how would she know if he likes her or not leh, and she went, "i dont know" and then i suddenly burst into song "How does she knows, he loves her? How does she knows she's yours (how does she knows that you love her?)" ala Enchanted and then we both suddenly burst into laughter. i just suddenly feel like singing that mah... i think i watch too much musical la.... lol. it's like i can burst into songs any moment like that one.... :D

currently the song that's stuck in my head is:

Agadoo Lyrics

Ag-a-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to the knees
Come and dance every night, sing with a hula melody

I met a hula mistress somewhere in Waikiki
Well she was sellin' pineapple, playin' ukulele
And when I went to the girl, come on and teach me to sway
She laughed and whispered to me, yes come tonight to the bay

The lovely beach, in the sky the moon of Kauai
Around calypso sarong we'll all be singin' this song

Ag-a-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to the knees
Come and dance every night, sing with a hula melody

Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to the knees
Come and dance every night, sing with a hula melody

And down on the shore they gather romance
She showed me much more, not only to dance...

Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to the knees
Come and dance every night, sing with a hula melody

Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to the knees
Come and dance every night, sing with a hula melody

The lovely beach, in the sky the moon of Kauai
Around calypso sarong we'll all be singin' this song

Ag-a-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, shake the tree
Aga-doo-doo-doo, push pineapple, grind coffee
To the left, to the right, jump up and down and to



it is annoyingly funny - for now la. but i am sure when it over play in my head, i will go crazy :D

*edit* wahahahahahaha... i watched the whole vid and i find it damn fucking funny la.. :P it's sooooooooo eighties! roflmao!

been having a lot of weird and jiwang dreams recently.

mo tuin tuin dreamt about LL my 1st and longest crush yesterday.

i know i should stop looking back and move on. if not i will forever be stuck in the past. and seriously, it is not healthy at all.

also, if i dont let go of the past, how do i embrace the present and future? but how do i leg go???

le sigh....

weird dream

setting: my kluang house before it is clustered with mom's junks

MF suddenly became the BKT guru and he was lecturing me on BKT 101. =.="

err... actually, i dont really wanna get into details. nothing 18SX happened la. just weird.

i do know where did the dream derived from. i had BKT for dinner with Finger and Mr. 5cm last nite and i called MF to wish him happy bday last nite.

but i dont knw how come my mind can be so creative to create such weird dream....

dreams...

we were in Mr 5 cm's car. his car was parked a at parking lot and behind his car is a monsoon drain. he wound down the window to talk to someone and somehow he let go of the brake and the car slowly row backward and we all keep on telling him to press brake. he didnt until it was too late but miraculously the car was in limbo between land and monsoon drain.

i woke up to pee and hit my forehead, why so stupid? i should have pull the handbrake right???

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i got stranded in 1u. apparently all the doors to get out were locked already but somehow the shops were all open without anyone in. i walked and walked and walked and took and took and took alot of stuffs, apparently it's free.

scene change, i ended up in tai ku's place in kluang with all the freebies. then the drama came. they all accused me of spending more money which they did not contribute a single cents. and then we argued and quarrel and i ended up leaving the country with all the shopping items without my passport.

i woke up going to pee and slapped my forehead for not telling them to fuck off and die

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i was working alone in the office on weekend and suddenly the doors to the toilets started to bang like mad. i ran to the conference room to open the window to shout for help. but everyone outside were just laughing at me.

i woke up going to pee and slapped my forehead for not turning around to see what were they laughing at

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we were all back in jon's room, smoking up weed and ice. and talking cock. looking at jon play maple stories. then jon started to philosophize about maple stories in relations to drugs. everyone started to laughed and thought it was funny. i didnt get it. i asked them to explained and they all laughed further. i fell asleep and woke up seeing yamen kissing jon and mike kissing reefu. ifer was just sitting there stoning.

i woke up going to pee and slapped my forehead asking myself what the fuck was that all about???

edit: this is weird coz jon, yamen, mike and reefu are all homophobic males :D

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i m on an island with mr wilson. and started talking to 'god'. apparently i am so useless i ought to be struck my lightning.

i woke up going to pee and asked myself when will i die?

weird dreams...

i dreamt that i was dreaming that i was dreaming that i was having sex with mf. then i dream that i was dreaming that i woke up from that sex dream and sms mf and we laugh about it. then i dream that i realized i was dreaming that dream and felt damn weird. then this morning, i also dunno if i really got sms mf or not, checked my hp, dont have sent msg... sooooooooooooo weird!!! now i feel like i didnt sleep the whole nite at all

the world does not revolves around you... bitch!

Ms Know It All is really think the world revolves around her.....

Big Cow had a very disturbing dream just now :-(

Shinnyhappydude at 8:35am June 30

sounds fun!

Big Cow at 9:16am June 30

nope, not fun... :P

Ms Know It All at 9:32am June 30

err... not becuz after i share my dream yesterday yah?

Big Cow at 9:37am June 30

ha? wat dream?

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The dream... it was really disturbing la.... here it goes:

i dreamt that i was with my bro and mom having a meal at a restaurant facing the main road. then we saw this old lady ferrying her blind husband and a 3yrs old granddaughter on her bicycle across the street towards our direction. when she is reaching us, her brake tak makan and she fell into the longkang. then we rushed out only to realized the longkang is almost filled to the brim with very strong current flowing towards the river. i rush into the restaurant which incidentally is where Art and his wife is staying. So in a panicking voice, i told Art to save the old lady coz i dont know how to swim. Then when we go back to the longkang, the old man and the small girl was wailing pitily and someone actually jumped into the long kang looking for the old lady only to realized that the long kang is about 10ft deep! :O after a long futile search, we were not able to find the old lady :( and then mommy took out some money and told me to help the old man's utilities bills and mommy said: "Too bad this month i m really tight, only got RM80 to help" i checked my purse, and i've only got RM40 left and i look at my bro, whose wallet is filled to the brim with cash and asked him to help but he told us he dont have money.

and then i woke up. feeling helpless unable to help someone becoz of my shortcomings :(

too much....

... eating! i know i know... i really ask for it one... but you see hor, when u plan something on a piece of paper and the actual process of that plan to work is totally different leh... :P and yes, we ate EVERYTHING that was planned + 3 unplanned makan stop and seriously, it's damn too much!! :D

Let's recap what happened shall we?

We skipped lunch completely on Saturday, anticipating that we will be eating a lot that nite... :D so on the way back to Kluang, we were pretty much famished to almost death :D Right after we keluar toll, i asked them, wanna go popo's house to letak barang 1st or go makan 1st. they gave me the look like i m some kinda idiot... :P of coz makan 1st la :D wokie, so 1st stop, we went to Yean Kee for Ngau Lam Mein aka Beef Tripe Noodles aka Gu Bak Hoon aka Toing Toing Toing mee. :D rate by Ms Asst Finance Manager? Not beefy enough. wokie... :D but i like it la :D then we head to popo's place to put our stuffs, talk to popo a bit and freshen up abit and made an empty promise to popo that we will be back to play mahjong with her (not intentionally ok? just that we were too caught up with makan-ing :P). anyway, we next proceed to my home to let my mom tell their fortune. omg. my mom, being my mom, went and say things without filter, dishing out relationship advise to her in front of her bf! ok la, my mom didnt realized they were together :P anyway, i went snooping around the house and i found durians and mangosteen! omg! omg! omg! i wanna eat! but my mom being blur, didnt open the durian for me :(. so we left the house and proceed to go makan pork/beef balls noodles. as usual, a lot of ppl la... i saw mf there. but i wasnt really in the mood to layan him then (think hot, sticky, grouchy), and yes, mf, if you are reading, i did saw you and her :D but i really wasnt in the mood to layan you - then. so anyway, after eating the pork/beef balls noodles (her verdict, she loves the beef balls alot!), my mom called to ask me to go back and collect vege to pass to popo and ngor yee por. so we went over and pass the vege. after that, we went to explore the schools area to see if can see hantu or not (i know, damn bo liao, right? :P), then received call from my mom again, asking us to go back and eat durian :P so quickly go back... wei durian wei! :D how to say no? :P there u go, 1st unplanned eating. anyway, my mom then told us that she will be making her special Abalone Kerabu tomorrow and asked us to pop over before lunch to makan the appetiser (2nd unplanned food!) and then mommy also told Ms Asst. Finance Manager that the Hamm Char aka Lui Char at this place damn nice and Ms. Asst Finance Manager insisted that we must have it (3rd unplanned food!). anyway, after having durian, we went to makan tong sui... had my pak kor tong sui and my tong yuen. then i backside itchy and mms the tong yuen to MF and Minger. And he sms-ed me. one thing led to another, we planned to meet up in Hoover for (his 2nd breakfast - my 3rd breakfast) breakfast. anyway, after eating the tong sui, we went back to popo's house (at 10pm) only to panicked abit... all dark dark one... i didnt bring the keys out wor... how? thank goodness popo woke up and opened the door for us :P. but popo didnt want to play mahjong with us alre coz it was too late for her. so ok lor... we bathe and freshen up and 3 of us eyes big big look at each other. nothing to do wor... so we decided to go sing karaoke.. the only problem is, i dont know where is the karaoke :P we rounded a few rounds, still couldnt find one... so we ended up going to Kluang Mall to watch movie. And that nite, they were only playing Transformers. :D at ALL 6 cinema. keng or not? :D oh oh, and i fell in love that night.... with Optimus Prime :D he soooooooooooooooooo hensem! :D ok ok... let's cont with the makan makan story... by the time we sampai rumah from transformers were alre 3.15am and we are planning to wake up at 8.45 to start makan-ing again :P so what happened next was damn stupid. sms-ed small cow till about 4am then sleep with weird dream. i dreamt that we overslept and received a morning wake up call from MF asking us where are we. apparently it was 10.30am alre. so i terkejut and woke up only to realize that it's only 7.15am. cannot sleep already coz i takut really late (stressed right??). but i was in a fucking happy mood la... i mean hey, eating again wor! :D we left the house at around 9.30am to makan curry laksa at Yong He, then proceed to buy 4D. oh yea, i forgotten to tell you, i terstepped on dog shit :P and terkena her car. so we decided to buy. :D after buying, we went to makan Hamm Char, and then proceed to Hoover for toast bread, tea and egg :D then after that, we went back to popo's place for toilet visit. :D then after that, we went to makan the yong tau foo :D and then went back home to eat abalone (this is by far the most favourite thing that they have eaten so far... lol) and then went to makan the asam pedas thingie. I love their flat fish la... dunno what is it called, but damn nice lor... and she loves the steamed otak otak :D after that, we went back to popo's place to mandi and leave kluang. on the way to the toll, we stopped by at Zenxin organic farm to see organic stuffs and buy dragon fruits :D by the time we reached Puchong, it was already 7.30pm. then i have to rush all the way back to NZX to makan dinner with Small Cow. actually if can dont go, i sure wont go one... coz i was too damn fucking full already. but that the last day the shop will operate in NZX, so dengan kiasu and rakus-nya, we must go makan 1 last time la :D

Small Cow wanted to go sing K after the dinner. But my battery was so flat until i cannot even keep my eyes open for a long period of time whilst driving. so no, i told her cannot la... tak larat alre... went home, do laundry, bathe, sleep.

end of updates. :P

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am lusting over MF now. omg.

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still sleepy. i think i will go back home early to sleep....

yesterday...

... was an emotional roller coaster day for me. but in a good way actually :D

1st(down), i'm still pissed with small cow for being pissed with me for being pissed with her for being pissed with me for being pissed with her.... anyways, it's complicated.

2nd(up), found a fling

3rd(confused), MF added me in FB

4th (shocked & sad), found out that my ex form teacher's son, JJ passed away. We got history with JJ one. damn silly highschool days history la... but overall, dont think he is a nice person. Just feel sad for my teacher, that's all

5th(up up!), Fai and Minger @ Minger's FB :P

and............ the best of it all.....

6th (super up), Mr Pedestal, yup, that guy whom i've always put high up on the pedestal whom we have not spoken in like more than 10 years whom whenever i hear his name or see his name or see him, my heart goes beepopbeepopbeepop, whom, due to my silly antics during schooling days is avoiding me like mad.... SEND ME A FUCKING MESSAGE IN FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

but.... i had a very disturbing dream.

i dont really remember much of it, i know the gist of it was i came back late, my mom got angry and she dragged me to the street and caned me till i was half dead. which honestly speaking, i believe my mom will do that in real life when she is pissed enough.... i think i m psychologically scarred for life from my mom's craziness la...

ok. that's too depressing.

let's talk about MF a lil bit. i realized i m really in love with him coz even with Mr Pedestal sending me a msg, MF is the 1st person whom i wanna share this happy news with. not to gloat or anything, he is just the 1st person i think of when i have something happy to share. but of coz i didnt contact him la! as it is, my asshole got a lot of worms already. dont need to stuff more in :x

oh oh... remember i told you before, i m a social retard? as in like in social gatherings, i will always feel awkward and dont know what to say or do? welp, i was suppose to sign the condolences guestbook for JJ, but i dont know what to write or say leh... i seriously think i am fucked up socially :(

weird dreams... i had em again last nite.

this time the ppl involved are me, my brother, Ms PA and my bro's childhood bestfriend, DHC :D oh.. i think my dad and Mr Pedestal had a cameo role :P

venue: my 1st rented house in Subang SS12.

Scenario: dunno what the fuck happened, Ms PA and my bro sort of hooked up or something. and my bro's punya car tak de petrol. so we were chilling in the house and my bro decided to go get petrol which is like less than 100 meters away. and i tumpang Ms PA to buy me this cheap sarsi flavored popsicles. and so they left. and then left only DHC and me. i think they were around coz they were attending some party opposite the house hosted by Mr Pedestal. or something like that la. then dunno what happened, we started to make out and almost have sex, and i teringat, eh? my bro wanna go pump petrol, how come he forgotten to drive his car one leh? so we decided to walk to the petrol kiosk to laugh at my bro's silliness (yea, so stupid right? half way wanna have sex can think like that =.=")when we sampai that petrol kiosk, only Ms PA is around and my bro wasnt there. she informed us that he asked her to go ahead to petrol kiosk 1st, he wanna go see Mr Pedestal. And then next thing i know, my dad is in the petrol kiosk. i got my popsicle and suddenly, we are back in that house. and it's already a few hours later. dad was at home, Ms PA gone, my bro is somewhere in the house too. DHC and i were in my room chilling, watching some tv. and we finally did have sex. and then he and my bro went to Mr Pedestal's party. I wasnt invited, altho DHC insisted that i go coz he wants to announce us to everyone but i didnt want Mr Pedestal to know... :P and then.......

i woke up with a very extremely bad stomachache at 6.15am =.="

i dont knw why, but i can remember most of the details of this weird dream.

oh, btw, DHC is also married with a very cute son :D

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what is wrong with me? how come i am always attracted to married men? ok la, i know them that time they werent married. i m always in love with the wrong person, sigh... story of my life.

DHC is a very very nice guy. he always treat me much better than my bro treats me. we sort of grew up together also la. he started to hang out at our house and vice versa when i was 7yrs old (he stays 2 streets away). so, he is like a second brother la... then everything changed when he left kluang to study in SG under ASEAN Scholarship :)

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my patience running out. obviously friendship means nothing to you. pms not tai sai, ok?

weird dreams

more like erotic dreams. dreamt about Mr. Hubba and Flying Susu, we were in Bali, or how i thought Bali would look like :D

the dream was weird.... erotic.... weird.... impossible... weird :P

u know what? being a natural paranoid and suspicious bitch that i m, i suspect he found my blog :D but then again, using logic, i doubt he did.... coz hor, i asked him before if he reads blogs and he told me no coz it's a waste of time and since he is like married to his work, he where got time to come snooping around? hmmmm.....

ignorance is bliss.... i shall choose to believe he doesnt read my blog :D so that i can still gush and oooh and ahh over him... hahahahahahahahaahah

it's funny how human behaves when they found out another party is in love with them. :D last nite djdoof of omerta (i havent blog about omerta before, have i? :P) confessed his feelings for me. and i reacted by: hahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahahahahah

=.=" yea... i did that. i find that funny coz he is like fucking 11 yrs younger than me and he is in fucking Netherlands! lol. but he is fun to chat with la... :D and he was a fucking good buster :D

anyway, after a good laugh, i said this:

Big Cow: you do know that we are worlds apart, right?
Djdoof: yep
Big Cow: you do know that i am MUCH older than you, right?
Djdoof: yep
Big Cow: you do know that nothing will ever comes out between us, right?
Djdoof: yep
Big Cow: ok. just checking :D

he is still a sweetie la :D and i dont wanna lose a friendship just coz he likes me. lol

but that's how i think. what about MF? what happens now? i dont know.

anyway, change subject abit.... i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to Small Cow for helping me collect my prize from Nuffnang yesterday :D w00t! she is gonna pass it to LM today and tonite, i am gonna play with my make ups! lol...

oh oh... i dreamt about MF again last nite. i need to be cured of MF-istist!!! pronto!!! i feel like i m losing myself and identity just becoz i m so damn fuckig in love with him! le sigh.....

Big cow's....

... dream... more like nightmare...

lol...

what happened? welp, as said previously, my weekend were spent sleeping most of the time. and as usual, i had weird dreams. yea. my dreams are most of the times weird. :P

i dreamt that dunno what happened, small cow and i suddenly pat tor, wearing pinafore! omg. that is so damn highly impossible in so many ways! 1 thing, i am fucking older than her by 9 fucking years (yea, she is that young - and no, i am NOT that old, ok? :P). and i am straight. ok, no, i m bisexual, but that's besides the point. and she is my sister la for god's sake and that is so damn fucking wrong! lol! i dont wanna go into the details of the dream coz i dont quite remember it. just remember the fact that in the dream we were pat-toring. and when i woke up, i sms-ed her. :P and she was as grossed out as i was. and now, we are teasing each other by calling each other darling, dear, dearest, honey and all those craps which makes us wanna puke..... hahahahaha

weird dreams....

went Mydin with LB, Finger and FM last nite to get stuffs for our bbq party next week. by the time we shopped finish, i was already dying with hunger. i think even if they suggest McD, i will just whack (yes, i am a big anti McD). So anyway, we decided to go Simon's in USJ. It's like the past revisited. The last time i stepped into Simon's was like in 2006... so anyway, we ate and laughed and then LB told us to wait awhile, Big Boss will be joining us coz he forgotten to bring his house keys. So whilst waiting for him to arrive, FB and Mr. S (yea, he joined for makan) decided to tell us stories about haunted north south highway. Particularly the Pagoh stretch. Nia ma, hear alre, my bulu all stand up. Anyway, i asked them to stop coz i memang damn useless in ghost stories, or rather, my imagination is too good to hear all these stories......

.... hence, weird dreams. i dreamt that somehow i was in Big Boss' car with LB and him and we were in Singapore viewing one of the Executive Flats and after viewing, we were suddenly in a Malaysian public school. LB wanted to use toilet and me being a selective toilet goer decided to skip this toilet, since malaysian school toilet = ultra disgusting. Welp, i guess i made the wrong choice. Big Boss vanished from the driver's seat, and i was suddenly at the driver's seat and i was suddenly driving his car, and it was suddenly late at nite and when i look at the rear view mirror, i saw the same ghost that always haunt me in all my ghostly nitemares (all white, long black hair, bloodshot eyes that doesnt have any pupils, head detached from the body at the neck area with blood still dripping onto the white baju and a comb that goes up and down the hair, combing it - yea, this is the ghost that ALWAYS haunt me in my dream, the same thing that i saw way back in Singapore), i panicked when i saw it, and i swerved to the right into an on going cyclist wearing some WW2 Japanese army uniform... and i woke up.

yea... all these thanks to FM and Mr. S. grrr..... =.="