when cooker goes on strike....

"Cooker" aka me is on strike indefinitely coz it's actually pretty tiring. My initial plan was to have dinner with small cow or just go home makan instant noodles and call it a night. Coz I really need to catch up on my sleep.

Manatau....

The out of ordinary event started during lunch when Mr Married called to inform he is around the neighbourhood and wanna buy me lunch. It's out of ordinary coz I've been eating in for so long, I dun really go out for lunch anymore :D

Next, Zia (a long time blogger friend... we go waaaaaayyy back in 2002 :D) ding dong ding dong (whatsapp) me to let me know she is in town and hope to meet and catch up. We were reminiscing the crazy times we had during her last visit (abt 7yrs back) and how she misses my jeruk mangga. So I told her I need to scout around for mango trees to steal some mangoes to do it for her (afterall, stolen fruits always taste better ma :D) we were joking and laughing like siao charboh. And made plans to meet up later last night to yumchar.

Then the next even happened just before I clocked out. Lady boss called to tell me that she was stuck in a jam and Sandy the Dog needs to clear her bladder soon if not she will have accident in the office. After getting detailed instructions from her, I realized I have no confident in executing the task well coz Sandy is really old and she can't cross the road properly anymore and I have to carry her across the main road to the housing area for her to do her business. Me? Carry dog? Cannot la. Play can la. Scratch can la. Belly rub can la. Carry, no la. So I enlisted MyColleagueIsSoOneKind to help and my task were to coax Sandy to pee like "Sandy... Jui jui lor... Shhhhhh.... Shhhhh.... Sandy.... Jui jui.... Shhhh.... Shhhhh" :p Anyways, the task was completed not long later coz Sandy really really needed to go. :D

On the way back to the office, we passed by a fruits shop and saw a lot of green mangoes. Bought some only I stupidly asked if it's sour. Nope, it's not. Then decided to pop by at the supermarket on the way home to get soy sauce and lime (improvise coz if it's sour mango, no need lime). After buying all these, I jammed all the way back only remember that the minimart near my house sells unripe mangoes! So I went over and got some. Came home immediately went on the task of crushing the cili padi with a fork only to remember I have pestle and mortar thingie. So I took the pestle to pounce on the cili quickly (rushing for time coz Small Cow and Sam-"I am not a LaLa"-son was on the way over to fetch me) and then.... Fucking accident happened!! The bloody cili padi juice splashed on my face and hand AND Sam-"I am not a LaLa"-son have to call me during the accident to tell me they were leaving MV alre and i was pretty rude to him over the phone plus the line was breaking up, i didnt really have the mood to be courteous :P. Fucking hell, the cili juice damn pedas lor!! I think I am disfigured alre *exegerating* So I quickly made the jeruk, put in a container and chill in the fridge. Planning to come home after dinner to collect the jeruk and meet ZiaHoay later :) Quickly went to take a quick shower to get rid of the cili sting.

Small cow and Sam came not long later. As usual, I am a fickle minded person. Suggested another location for dinner and we went to Kepong for Ka Ka BKT. Seriously very good!! :D towards the end of the dinner, Small Cow's friend came over to exchange car with her coz she wanted to modify more stuffs on her car. Immediately after we enter his car, we felt damn LaLa-fied wei! LOL!! Samson kept on muttering that he is not a LaLa. and he was lamenting how stressed he was sitting in the car coz he didnt know how to explain to ppl how un-lala he actually is. we went to pump petrol on that lala car and Sam asked Small Cow to tell the attendant that the car is not ours, we are not lala :P ya, he is pretty "fai" =.=" but funny. but i wont wanna hang out with him too often la... later i vomit blood :p And the music in the car also damn lala lor!! We laughed all the way back to his condo and before he left the car, I shouted "Bye! LaLa Chew!!" LOL. He was really embarrassed!! Hehehhehehe.

On the way back, small cow offer to bring me home to collect the jeruk mang to bring to MV to meet Zia coz i was really really tired by then. and that lala viva is really really stable lor! she drove at 140kmh and i didnt feel a thing!!! :D

Met Zia briefly and she reminded me of the crazy stuffs that i dragged her to do the last time she was here :P i brought her to go Ghost hunting with Ifer and we scare ourselves shitless when we saw something flew pass and we really thought it was a ghost but see see, it's just a bat =.=" and how we tried to go up the hill in murphy and murphy dont have much power and i say "Ok! everyone lean forward and lift your butts!" - coz my illogical mind really think that will help murphy to move forward :P after hugging and laughing for awhile, i told her i better get going as small cow was waiting in the car for me and i was really really really tired. i hope to see her again soon la :D I told her to lemme know way way in advance the next time she plan to fly over here coz i will need to scout around for mango trees to steal mangoes :D our plan is, she climb the tree coz as she phrase it: "I am still very tall! i can help to climb and steal mangoes!" and i will be shaking the tree trunks to shake the fruits down :P

Back in the car, i was replaying what Zia reminded me to Small Cow and i realized that i am really really really crazy and sampat when i have the right kaki to sampat with. when i am alone, i am a boring person. no doubt i have a lot of crazy ideas, but to find the "victims" to do crazy stunts with is damn hard lor :D

i really missed those good old days when i was younger and crazier. i also miss ifer coz she is one person who will always indulge in my crazy stints :D every time we suggest a crazy stint, we will definitely act on it. most of the time halfway thru the stint, we will be asking ourselves, "What the fuck are we doing here???" :p

Alas, things always happens for a reason. Am moving on :D

After sending the jeruk mang to Zia, we went back, smoked a bit and talked more and look at the lala car even more.... u wanna knw how wrong is the car? it's own by a straight guy, but it's full of Hello Kitty stickers!!! =.="" and a lot of bling blings and blink blinks! As Sam said, Christmas has come early! LOL!

When we were in the car, i felt the urge / compelled to do something unlalafying just to prove that i m not a lala as well. lol. i know how sam feel. and i am very sure small cow feels the same but she has no choice. lol.

when i went up the apt, i looked at the kitchen sink and i couldnt take it and washed up the stuffs that i didnt manage to wash after i did the jeruk mang. bathe. and when my head hit the pillow, i slept immediately. that was how tired i was.

i guess there is no point to plan to sleep early coz it never happens!! :P

i m bursting with glee now and yet i am feeling a tad guilty for the source of gleefulness. i need my bitching buddies!!! :D

i miss ifer a lot. i've been thinking about her lately. even sent her a message via facebook. but i m very sure she will not reply at all. it was raining heavily yesterday and my mind was brought back to the college days. how silly we were playing under the rain trying to get sick coz we didnt study for our calculus test the next day and we knew we were doomed :P so we came up with a silly idea. let's get sick. let's play under the rain! so she changed into her bikini and i wore my nightie and we sat at the carpark and talk and laughed at our silliness :D. we even walked the whole apartment area with ppl whistling at us or looking at us weirdly :D then she needed to get cigarettes and we walked to the nearby 24hr shop to buy. we knew the uncle well and on the way there, we were giggling and wondering wat's the uncle's reaction gonna be. but he was very cool about it. as if like it's normal for 2 crazy girls to be soaked wet in nighties and bikini walking into his shop at 4am in the morning getting cigarettes :D :D :D :D then there's another time where minger and ifer suddenly wish to eat American moist chocolate cake from Baker's Cottage - at 8am in the morning. We were hanging out the whole night at our balcony talking nonsense and drinking beer and singing songs (yes, we were really a nuisance then) until 7am so that we can have our favourite wantan mee :D after breakfast, they needed desserts and Baker's Cottage was opened already. And somehow, in our crazy mindset, in order to buy a cake, we needed a birthday person. So we started to think, whose bday was around the corner? and we realized Juju's bday was 2 weeks away. So we bought the cake, went home all giggly at our silliness, knocked on Juju's door and wake her and Babi up and forced Juju to blow the candles. You should see their tulan and yet cant show tulan-ness face :D after Juju blow the candles, we shoo them back to sleep so that Minger and Ifer can eat the cake :D looking back, i seriously think we have really amazing and patience housemates :D coz if anyone did that to me, i will just smash the bloody cake at their face and go back to sleep :P so yea.... i miss ifer. we really had a lot of funny childish time together. :(

i am waiting for obelix, the ex that got away, to come online :D he is the next best bitching buddy :D just called him, he is busy today. ask to me to keep it till tomorrow and we will bitch all i want :D

small cow is currently unavailable. i think she is having her down time now. so ya.....

minger lagi unavailable. she has bosses from hell!!

jiwang....

.... was as usual driving to work and "Complicated" by Avril Lavigne came on again. The last time i thought of him was almost 2 yrs ago. I dont know why did he suddenly came into my mind again. i think i seriously need a closure. how is he doing? is he still on ice? is he married? did he still tried to look for me after i moved out? did he tried calling me (i've since changed phone numbers numerous times)?

a planned trip...

i m really hopeless in blogging now. i cant find the time nor inspiration to blog anymore.

found some singapore ex-colleagues on facebook and after a few exchanges, i've planned a short trip to singapore this cny :D

i was pretty excited about this whole singapore trip until just now. and now i m super stressed.

you see, altho our team was really close on the surface, there were some dissatisfaction among the team mates. on one group will be the team leader and her 'pets' and another will be Ms S and friends. where do i fall? both category. actually the feud is between Ms S and the team leader. Somehow their 'ba zi' not ngam la. they just dislikes each other.

but at towards the end, i realized Ms S was the problem one. she is the queen of manipulative and a user. i was used to knit a dress for her daughter. altho everyone around me was telling me that i was being stupid. my thought then was it's ok, at least i learn knitting ma.... but towards the end, i did feel like i kena used la..but i dont remember why i feel that way. could be her behavior or her tone.

then the biggest betrayal was... erm.. forget it. dont really wanna go in depth but i was really hurt la... and that incident prompted me to come back to malaysia for good.

so anyway, 12yrs have passed and i've moved on - and i've added them in my FB. i actually did forgot about Ms S's characteristic. and i was looking back at the good old days with a rose-tinted glasses.

last nite, Ms Chewing Gum (whom i was also really close to, who was from the team leader's side) called me and we chatted for almost an hour. she told me how Ms. S used the team leader's friendship to betray her to the extend that the team lead decided to cut off all ties with ms s once and for all (apparently a first for the team leader)

so the plan was, on the 1st day of my trip, i will be going over to the team leader's house for gathering and meet up with a whole bunch of ex colleagues whom i've not seen for 12yrs - which i m really excited. and ms s is conspicuously not invited. which i was fine with me. until... ms s sent me a msg via fb asking me to meet. at first i was ok la, since i know the 2nd day i m planning to meet with another ex colleague who, most likely cannot make to the team leader's house for the gathering, whom is ok with ms s. so i dont mind meeting la. but ms s has other plans. she expect me to spend the whole day with her - which i m honestly not comfortable with. and asked me over to her house and meet her kids and then go out jalan jalan. i politely told her due to the short time i m gonna be in singapore, i prefer to utilize my time better by meeting more ppl. then she retorted that i will be meeting most of them at the team leader's house anyway. why cant i meet her alone the next day? i didnt know wat to answer. the real answer in my head was: "i dont wanna waste so much of my time with you, bitch! you were afterall the one who betrayed me and hurt me the most!" but instead, i explained to her again how short my stay in singapore is. and then she asked why did i plan such short trip. which honestly speaking, kinda irks me. so i told her no money la - in a very diplomatic way la... talking about exchange rates not in my favour and bla bla bla (apparently i can be diplomatic when pushed to a corner! =.=")

she didnt reply me after that.

here's the feeling i've identify over this whole episode:

1. sibeh stress ah! why human relationships so damn fucking complicated la? why la she wanna make things so complicated la?

2. guilty for taking side. this is the feeling i always had since last time. coz i always feel like i m torn between 2 people. so this time round, i choose to go over to team leader's house, somehow from the email exchange, i feel guilty. as if like i've chosen side. she make it seems like she so pitiful. like everyone is ostracizing her. maybe they are la... but then again, if she has not done anything wrong, will they behave that way? apparently even her those close friends from her side do not keep contact with her anymore and they are still in contact with the team leader (yea, actually her close friends all also ok with the team leaders one) and they will be going over for the gathering too! so ya lor, she send me pm asking to meet me alone and when i suggest her to invite more ppl, she make it seems like she has no more friends and if i dont meet her alone, she will be destined to be alone for the rest of her life (i m over dramatizing - but it's something like this la)

3. angry. angry that she is manipulating my 'easily get guilty' feeling all over again and act like the kelian one. angry that she actually ignited my unwanted angry and sad memories of her betraying me. angry that apparently i have not let go and have not moved on. angry that i dont know how to tell her, now, that i really dont wanna meet her anymore.

4. irritated. irritated that she is still that secretive. she is always wanting to know everyone's business but refuse to divulge her own things. like she asked me how's life, where am i located, what am i working as, which company am i working for. and when i replied and asked her back, she will change subject. like wtf??

so ya... from a very happy looking forward to this trip thingie, i suddenly lost one or 2 of the excited bubbles =.="

but i am still looking forward to meet the rest of the ppl la and explore around singapore and eat all the yummy local delights :D

i've sort of make up my mind not to meet her already - actually :D. we've not exchanged any phone numbers so i can just conveniently forget about it :D

i would love to go back to the old places i used to go when i was there. so most likely i will spend the whole day exploring myself :D

places that i wanna go:
1. changi airport - the place that i used to work. too bad i dont have the pass to walk around the transit area :D
2. bugis junction / century square / tampines mall / orchard area - i have to choose one la.. coz i know it's highly impossible to go all these places in mere 1 day :D
3. clarke quay
4. changi village
5. bedok / tampines / pasir ris (quite doable since team leader's place is in tampines)

food that i wanna eat:
1. chwee kueh
2. indian rojak
3. orh chien
4. popiah
5. chicken rice
6. nasi lemak
7. hokkien mee
8. yu tiao panggang and dipped with rojak sauce
9. soto
10. malay mix rice
11. tahu telor
12. singapore subway

fuck... i knw i cannot have it all :(

no, altho i m going with minger and her bf and staying in the same hotel, i doubt we will hang out in singapore together at all :D maybe will meet them go drinking at night la. :D

Updates with pic!

contrary to what some of you believe, no, the lack of updates is not because i been kidnapped by that Psychotic Ex BF.

anyways, so much to blog about! :D Went to watch West Side Story on Saturday. It was an atas event, altho they didnt serve champagne (disappointed!) Anyway, being the kiasu us, we reached there super early. so early until the matinee show havent even end =.=" then that silly LM suggested we go to PWTC to look see look see the dunno what beauty fair. we went there, it was damn empty... only to realized that the fair is actually at KLCC =.=" and since we have already parked the car, it's stupid to immediately leave coz we still have to pay the RM3.00 parking anyways. So we like so hai like that, went to the lobby and sat at the sofa and camwhore a bit. smoked a stick of ciggie, went to the toilet and then head back to Istana Budaya.

we were the 1st one to collect the ticket from the BMW counter. We each got a door gift containing a leather bound note pad, an original CD and program book :D They catered the food from Westin KL. Presentation wise nice la... but the taste, so so only. But we were damn full by the time we went down to watch the musical :D

RM 500.00 tix at a discounted price of RM338.00, FOC CD and Program Book at the retail price of RM80.00 is a great deal! :D

Some potato burger thingie (not nice) and honey glazed drummets (damn nice but super hard to eat when we need to pretend to be atas) these are the only food pic i took coz after that i kept the camera in the bag and too malas to take it out :D

The musical is really really impressive. I love the way they dance! So full of energy! I especially love the Dance at the gym scene and also the part where everyone came out and sang 3 different songs (i forgotten the scene - but i think it's the second half). It's damn hard to actually sing a song when there are 2 other groups of ppl singing other songs lor :D And Maria is really really pretty :D Drank too much drink during the cocktail session. so when the interval started, i rushed out to the toilet... thank goodness i rushed. coz when i came out from the toilet, the queue was damn long! :D was tempted to go back to the cocktail area to grab some drinks and snacks, but cannot la... later wanna pee how? :D

After the musical, we headed to PBD to look for the humble chef... but alas! he aint around :( We then headed over to Ronnie's place for his ROM party. But when we reach there, everyone left alre. too some courtesy snacks and catch up with Ronnie a bit and then balik. By the time we reach home it was alre 2ish 3.

Next morning, LM, Ah See and i went over to Sg. Buloh for the awesome dim sum. i was super hungry and whacked damn a lot :D actually, whacked too much la.. until we needed to go to TCM to walk walk abit to digest. after walking and stonning a bit, LM sent me home. Slept a bit then woke up to watch some dvd and then went out supper with the small cow.

and that, my kawan kawan, is why i was so busy over the weekend.

Oh oh... i found out i havent been updating a lot of pictures that i've taken eons ago. :P (mostly food tho)

Sometime in February, i've experimented in frying prawns and apparently the small cow and water dog loves it... here's the so called recipe:

You will need some ginger, onions, chili padi and curry leaves

Prawns! (duh!), removed the legs and de-veined it

1st, fry the ginger, onion, cili padi and curry leaves until fragrance. Then dump in the prawns. Fry until you are happy, add in the condiments like chinese cooking wine, soy sauce, dark soy sauce, oyster sauce and a dash of sugar.

Voila! Ya.. i know, a bit the too dark.. but it's damn yummy! :D

Then apparently, the next day, i cooked braised shitake mushroom with ming karn and served it with noodles....

fuck la... looking at this now makes me damn hungry... =.="

Then, one nite, cowie decided to turn halal and start wearing a tudung =.="

Kawan-kawan sekalian, this is Cowie Binti Lembu :D

Here's some pix of sunrise at Ruby's Resort, taken on the 1st day when we were fucking early.

Erm... ok, that's all the pics that i m willing to post :D

yesterday...

... was an emotional roller coaster day for me. but in a good way actually :D

1st(down), i'm still pissed with small cow for being pissed with me for being pissed with her for being pissed with me for being pissed with her.... anyways, it's complicated.

2nd(up), found a fling

3rd(confused), MF added me in FB

4th (shocked & sad), found out that my ex form teacher's son, JJ passed away. We got history with JJ one. damn silly highschool days history la... but overall, dont think he is a nice person. Just feel sad for my teacher, that's all

5th(up up!), Fai and Minger @ Minger's FB :P

and............ the best of it all.....

6th (super up), Mr Pedestal, yup, that guy whom i've always put high up on the pedestal whom we have not spoken in like more than 10 years whom whenever i hear his name or see his name or see him, my heart goes beepopbeepopbeepop, whom, due to my silly antics during schooling days is avoiding me like mad.... SEND ME A FUCKING MESSAGE IN FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

but.... i had a very disturbing dream.

i dont really remember much of it, i know the gist of it was i came back late, my mom got angry and she dragged me to the street and caned me till i was half dead. which honestly speaking, i believe my mom will do that in real life when she is pissed enough.... i think i m psychologically scarred for life from my mom's craziness la...

ok. that's too depressing.

let's talk about MF a lil bit. i realized i m really in love with him coz even with Mr Pedestal sending me a msg, MF is the 1st person whom i wanna share this happy news with. not to gloat or anything, he is just the 1st person i think of when i have something happy to share. but of coz i didnt contact him la! as it is, my asshole got a lot of worms already. dont need to stuff more in :x

oh oh... remember i told you before, i m a social retard? as in like in social gatherings, i will always feel awkward and dont know what to say or do? welp, i was suppose to sign the condolences guestbook for JJ, but i dont know what to write or say leh... i seriously think i am fucked up socially :(

a little story of a boy named John....

suddenly have a flashback on the way to work just now. i think the time was circa 2002/2003 when i was working my 1st job in Malaysia. his name was John. or so he claimed. i guess those of you who have read my previous blog knows about John. how crazy i was for him. lemme tell you his story today :D

i met John when i was out drinking with Ms Iggy Wiser and Mr Asshole in Phileo Damansara. wait. 1993-2005 was a self destructive years for me. Yea, 12 fucking years. :D So anyway, i was pretty drunk/high when i saw John from a far and i told Ms Iggy Wiser, that guy is damn fuckable :P and she dared me to go over to him and dance with him and tell him. which i did. and we exchanged phone numbers. nothing happened la. of coz! we exchanged a few sms-es. i dont know what happened, but we met up again. he came over to fetch me and brought me over to his sis's bf's place to smoke ice. at that time, i havent even started experimenting on drugs, i was just fascinated by the fact that i am able to see people doing doing drugs right before my eyes. no matter how much they tried to pressured me into taking my 1st puff of ice, i didnt do it. and that sort of annoyed them la... macam i am a spoil sport like that. so he sent me back. then fast forward a few months later, i dont really remember what happened. i think i told him i like him (yes! i was that stupid ok, but then again hor... if i see him again, my heart will still go beepop beepop :P) and he asked me out to meet him at Arios Cafe at Pyramid. Ms Iggy Wiser came along to teman me. my god, he brought his 'gf' along and humiliated me infront of everyone. telling me how useless i am and what a fucked up person i am and that i should not bother him anymore. which is like totally weird coz the last i remembered, he came finding me a coupla times without me calling or sms-ing him leh. and all these time when he was humiliating me, "Complicated by Avril Lavigne" was playing at the background, which is pretty apt. coz he really behave differently when we were alone in his car. so anyway, after that incident, i didnt bother to keep in contact with him anymore la... until..... Nov 16 2003, my bday. i was as usual, in my self pity mode and yet anti social. he called. to apologized over what he has done to me. he wanted me to give up on him coz he think he is not good enough for me (!!!!). after talking abit, he asked if i wanna go out. and i said sure. and me being me, brain dont have much filter, i told him it's my bday. :D we went to Dataran Merdeka to pat tor... yea... we did.... it was one of the best bday i've ever had coz it was fucking romantic la... he was apologizing the whole night, we were hugging and kissing and cuddling and talking about a lot of stuffs. and i was.. er... in love with him, i guess. then all good things needs to come to an end. i had to go back to office the next day (Sunday) for training and i didnt sleep at all. What happened was, he felt bad and drove me home to take a shower and then drove me to work (i didnt have a car then) and since i didnt sleep the whole nite, i was fucked la.... full day training... how to survive? and he intro ice to me again. this time round, i did it without much hesitation. yes, i started doing ice even before Ms Iggy Wiser did it. and i tell ya... the buzz that i go thru the whole day was seriously weird (which few years later i come to got addicted to the buzz... it;s hard to describe... it's just nice....:D). after that we stopped contacting for awhile again. yea, he and i, really on off on off on off.... then there was once, we contacted him coz we wanted to get some weed. and we met up for awhile. and then there was once, he suddenly throw pebbles on my window shouting my full name to make me come out to meet him. then there was once, he came over all psycho and started to scold me and humiliate me. then another time, he came over and apologize to me. the final time was he came over all psycho and accused me of dumping him for another guy. i had enough and told him not to find me anymore.

so today, the song Complicated was playing whilst i was driving to work and suddenly i thought of him. remembering all the sweet and fun times we had together. i wouldnt classified him as one of my ex coz honestly speaking, i dont think we ever started at all. after gotten myself into the drug scene before, i fully understand his psychoness then. i am not sure if he is cured of it. when he is not buzzing with ice, he is actually a really really really nice fella. i will forever remember Nov 16 2003 :D i miss him