finally...

.... a ranting post.

i've been avoiding to blog about this for awhile now. but seriously, i think i've reached my limits and beyond.

my immediate superior is what every single published magazine described as boss from hell. really. few weeks ago, Minger and i went over to Lisa's place for dinner and Yu Pei was there reading Cleo and there was this article on tackling bad bosses. And funnily (i forgot the exact questions), whatever question she asked about Minger and my bosses, we all answered a resounding "Yes". Pretty dasyat! Our bosses falls into ALL of the bad bosses categories! Not one, not two, but ALL five!

Minger and i laughed over it and i asked her "Eh, i didnt know we share the same boss!" :P

I think i can write a whole long thesis on that bitch boss. Whilst blogging this entry, i googled some articles about bad bosses. and she is in every single fucking article! =.=" i think she can be awarded the baddest of the baddest bosses in the whole fucking universe!!!

Signs of a Bad Boss

She gives you assignments and doesn’t follow up. - When i do remind her of it, she snapped at me =.="

He doesn’t support you when something goes wrong. - this didnt happened to me, but my other colleague. She is forever backstabbing him to other ppl, bitching about his wife and yet she sayang him the most by buy him lunch every single fucking day =.="

She thinks everything is fine when it isn’t. - we are losing a big client soon. her immediate boss and i are frantically finding ways to retain this customer and what does she say? It's ok, the customer wont leave us. I was at the meeting with the customer and her and the customer made it very clear he wants us to work out with our legal and finance to come out with the penalties for revoking the contract! =.="

He constantly claims that he is empowering you, but isn’t. where do i even fucking start??? she will forever breathe down my neck asking me about the task and get all pissed off coz i dont do it her way and she will not accept it that i am just trying to minimize double work! gosh!

She micro-manages and needs to know everything. yes!!! and then can come and complain and bitched to us saying that we made her do every single fucking things and get all hysterical and pissed off with us.

He acts paranoid. omg! so true!!!! i've been self censoring myself in FB coz she stalks FB every single fucking day and night and if we ever post something negative on it, she assumes it's about her and she get all pissed off and starts to make our lives miserable! she really thinks the whole fucking world revolves around her!!!!

She jumps to conclusions.- yup, she dont listen to explanations. no wait. she dont even bother to ask and she will just straightaway jump to the conclusion that you are guilty of some crimes you didnt even do. and she will accuse you of thinking of something that didnt even cross your mind! and when you give her the innocent wide eyes look coz you seriously do not know what the fuck is she talking about, she will say "Ya, ya, stop pretending!" w.t.f.!!

If it isn’t her idea, then it can’t be good. - so true!!!!!

He implements two-faced attacks.- yup!! she tells me her boss is pissed with me and then she tells her boss i am unhappy with his management. i was confronted by him and we cleared our airs. really fuck la!

She tells sarcastic jokes or teases.- she calls me dumb dumb every single fucking hour. 'nuff said!

Source: http://humanresources.about.com (the words in red is my own descriptions)

Here's the list of stuffs she also do:

1. Short fused and impatient - she has no patience teaching at all. whenever she teaches me, she yell and shout at me, uses irritated tone and made it clear to me that i am the world's stupidest person. how did she made it clear to me? She will always call me "Stupido" "Dumb dumb" or say things like "You are so stupid!" ya. she does that. what did i do to trigger her to say that to me? By asking question to reconfirm what she say is what i understand. once. only once. not twice, ok? and i write down notes and she is not happy that i write down notes coz apparently only stupid ppl does that. also, when i do ask her questions on stuffs that she did not teach me, she get all pissed off and shout at me "I told you before what!!" follow by throwing her pen on the table.

2. Hates Myvi drivers. yup. in her cuckoo twisted brains, ALL Myvi drivers are horrible drivers. Even if the Myvi drivers did not do anything wrong, she will honk impatiently. ya, she is a road bully. Newsflash: i am planning to buy a Myvi??? Tonite, she went another step closer to making me wanna slap her. she ask me to faster buy Myvi so that she can scold me even more!!!

3. Playing the victim card. When she is in her "nicer" mode, she will "confide" in me and tell me how hurt and sad she is coz she is forever being stabbed and betrayed by others. and how all her friends say she is stupid to always be too "nice" to other ppl and let them take the opportunity to stab and betray her and that she never learns her lesson.
Case study: Ada was my predecessor. Who is also my ex-colleague's wife. Who worked for the crazy bitch for 1 yr 4 mths before she decided enough is enough. So she quit, giving excuses that she wants to go back to Philippines due to family issues. During her work here, the crazy boss gave Ada her used bed and clothes coz the crazy boss was moving. So anyways, the boss felt like Ada betrayed and backstabbed her coz Ada quit. (yes! apparently no one is allow to quit!) and started to bitch about Ada to everyone and say how she pitied Ada that's why she "donate" all those stuffs to her. Recently i called Ada. The 1st thing i said to her when she answered the phone was "How long did you work there and how the fuck can you survive so long???" and we both started laughing. Then we chat for almost an hour on the phone since we've got so much in common! then she told me about the bed and the clothes. she told the crazy woman she dont want it. and the crazy woman insisted she take and if she really dont want it, throw it away. So wow, you FORCE ppl to take your junks when ppl dont want it and then u turn around and say you pitied them that's why you DONATE your stuffs to them??? how low can you get?

4.Her mouth is a sewage. honestly, if you think i curse alot, listen to her talk. not only does she curse alot, she CURSE alot! for example, just now we were on Federal Highway and there was this car driving pretty fast. it did not bother me. coz i was in the middle lane. when the car zoom by, she say "I hope that car get into car crash and die!" w.t.f?? She just only finished the round at the soup kitchen and then can have such evil thoughts?? what's the whole fucking point of doing good or doing charity then??? so i said "Eh. can you dont be so evil ah? that car also didnt disturb us???" then she gave the stupidest and feeblest excuse "No ma, drive so fast, so dangerous!" harlow, newsflash, when i sit in her fucking car, she drives damn fast also lor!!

5. Credit taker. when you suggest something to her, she will shoot you down no matter how good the idea is. coz it's not her idea. HOWEVER, the next day, she will suggest your suggestions and take it as her own suggestion! but tonite's incident is the cherry on top of the cake la. Last nite we went to Mydin to get stuffs to donate to KSK. I donated London Rolls, using my own money. She bought other stuffs like soaps, mamee, minyak cap kapak, and mosquito coils. then she asked me to Kwok Wai's number coz she wanna personally sms him. and she told me she will help me sms as well since she is already sms-ing him. i dont see anything wrong with it. Surprise surprise! Tonite when Kwok Wai announce donations, she got all the name and glory. I was pretty upset that she will stoop so low! i know i should let it go, since the homeless will benefit from it. but i just cannot stand the fact that she just take the compliment and never even bother to set the record straight!!!! then she acted all faint and acted like she is not feeling well as a way of changing subject!!!! ya, i am ultra pissed with this incident la

6. She thinks she is the most perfect and greatest thing on earth. She is always telling me how to live my life and all. i honestly, i am damn sick and tired of it! she tells me how to drive, which route to use (usually the longest and jammest and stupidest route- imagine: from d'sara heights to sunway. she got me to use sprint, exit kerinchi towards mid valley, drive the whole circle of mid valley, turn back to bangsar baru, u-turn back to jln bangsar, u turn back to NPE then head to sunway. when i wanted to use sprint to nkve, exit subang, hit to sunway - and she calls me dumb dumb *claps hands*), tells me what to eat (eventhough i am allergic), tell me who should i be friends with and who i should not be friends with, tell me what to do with my money..... EVERYTHING!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7. She is the most negative person on earth! She HATES everyone and everything! Everytime i optimistically tell her something, she will pessimistically throw a wet blanket on it! and she cannot stand ppl being happy! 

The list will go on and on and on and i am getting increasingly pissed now. so i am gonna stop.

it became so bad that i found myself letting go a deep breath without me realizing when i was walking towards my car the other day after work. and i also found myself suddenly shouted "aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" like a sohai whilst driving.

oh but dont worry, i am hanging on to this job. i love the company and the jobscope. honestly. :)

the only regret now is i cant get rid of her from KSK. seeing her mon-fri is already bad. seeing her on saturday nite with her going all out aggravating me is really too much la. so much so, i wish to stop ksk. but i enjoy my stints at ksk!! gosh!

Do we really need a man??

1st, lemme just say this, it is prolly me. i am prolly the weird one for feeling the way i feel and blogging this post...

i noticed there are quite a few females around me who are seriously desperately needing a man. and i get annoyed by it. it's like all the bloody conversation revolves around getting a man. revolves getting into a relationship. and honestly, i am quite sick of it.

yes, i know i also have thousands of crushes, likes thousands of guys. but that's just it. i dont NEED to be in a relationship with them. oh ok, i forgot, i have the phobia of committing in a relationship... but still, that's beside the point!

i am honestly really really really sick of these females. why so desperate? why cannot be independent? or, why need a guy by your side to show off??

here's a few case studies:

Moon - my ex workmate. the bloody moment she just joined us, she talks non stop about guys, about relationship, about guys going after her, about her being in one relationship, about her being out of the relationship and into another...all in a span of few weeks. and whenever she is in a relationship, she talks about it like it's a trophy she has won. super proud. and that's fucking annoying. i mean harlow, you wanna be in a relationship, go be. no need to show off one. you gimme the fucking impression that you were so unwanted, so unloved, and once you are in a relationship, you need to show off to the world that you are in fact not unwanted and unloved. honestly, why do you need to prove to the world? insecure much? *shakes head*

Ruby - not aunty Ruby of Cherating ah.... another Ruby. My current officemate. this one geng. 1st day i joined, she asked if i am married or have a bf. i think it's none of her fucking business but i answered anyways. nothing to be ashamed of, i'd say. then she tells me, she is 42yrs old never been married and ppl are all laughing at her. i told her it's her life, her choice. why bother what others think? eversince then la... everyday also talk to me about how unwanted she is, but she is not desperate. she just kept on passing judgement on herself, like how others will judge her. erm... newsflash, you think like that, obviously others will think like that of you la! what do i do when she talks about these? i just shuddup and eat my food and ignore her :D

Gold digger distance cousin - she is forever talking about finding a rich man to latch on and then never to worry about money again. she is desperate for a rich man. so desperate that she can do anything just to get one including betraying others. *true story* i guess she is the one that trigger me writing this post. i saw her FB update about wanting to eat chocolate, but decided not to. and her main reason is coz she wants to get a man. harlow????? need or not wor? wanna eat chocolate, fucking eat la....

seriously, why do women feel the need to have a partner to fulfill their lives or existence? why cant they just be happy and contented being alone and if the right one comes, he or she comes. no need to push or rush and be so desperate one leh. i honestly think it's perfectly normal to be alone until the right one comes along. if he/she ever comes - doesnt really matter, actually :D. in the meantime, i will just do what i do and enjoy what i love and that's it.

oh, btw, all those countless of crushes i have, they are just crushes. :D i admit, i am in love with a guy and at the same time having countless of crushes. and that's just it. some ppl might think it's quite pathetic to be "secretly" in love with this guy.... i also think so. especially when i know he is definitely not into me :D so i am moving on... with many crushes in between to lessen the impact :D

i used to talk about roller coaster rides and what not. this ride has ended some time ago and i am still trying to unbuckle myself to step out of it :D

so to conclude, i think women should fucking be independent and stop using a relationship as their fucking status quo measuring tool. if they feel the need to behave this way, i just hope these women stay outta my life. *shakes head*

please tell me this is miss quoted and not for real..

Malaysia 'obedient wives' club: Good sex is a duty

By EILEEN NG
The Associated Press

6:56 a.m. Sunday, June 5, 2011
RAWANG, Malaysia — As a new bride, 22-year-old Ummu Atirah believes she knows the secret to a blissful marriage: obey her husband and ensure he is sexually satisfied.

Ummu and some 800 other Muslim women in Malaysia are members of the "Obedient Wives Club" that is generating controversy in one of the most modern and progressive Muslim-majority nations, where many Muslim Malaysian women hold high posts in the government and corporate world.

The new club, launched Saturday, says it can cure social ills such as prostitution and divorce by teaching women to be submissive and keep their men happy in the bedroom.

"Islam compels us to be obedient to our husband. Whatever he says, I must follow. It is a sin if I don't obey and make him happy," said Ummu, who wore a yellow headscarf.

The club, founded by a fringe Islamic group known as Global Ikhwan, has been dismissed by politicians and activists as a throwback to Medieval times and an insult to modern women of Malaysia. But the group's activities, which previously included the setting up of a Polygamy Club, show that pockets of conservative Islamic ideas still thrive in Malaysia.

Groups such as Global Ikhwan are unlikely to gain much popularity beyond generating shock value. Still, there is concern that radical groups could garner support among other Muslims, who make up 60 percent of the 28 million population, and upset decades of carefully nurtured racial and religious harmony.

"Unfortunately even today, there are still many Muslim women who are ignorant of their rights or culturally inhibited to exercise their rights in full," said Shahrizat Abdul Jalil, a female Muslim minister in charge of family policy.

Despite the group's conservative Islamic background, Rohayah Mohamad, one of the founders of the club, openly talks about the virtues of marital sex even though most of her colleagues are shy about the topic.

"Sex is a taboo in Asian society. We have ignored it in our marriages but it's all down to sex. A good wife is a good sex worker to her husband. What is wrong with being a whore ... to your husband?" she said.

"This way, the family institution is protected and we can curb social ills," said Rohayah, the club's vice president who is also a trained physician.

She said wives must go beyond the traditional roles as good cooks or good mothers and learn to "obey, serve and entertain" their husbands to prevent them from straying or misbehaving.

Indirectly, "disobedient wives are the cause for upheaval in this world" because men are not happy at home and their minds and souls are disturbed, she said.

Authorities recently said Malaysia's divorce rate has doubled from 2002 to 2009 with higher rates among Malay Muslims.

"When husbands come home, wives do not welcome their husbands with warm alluring smiles and sexy dressing ... That is the reality today," she said.

The Global Ikhwan group is an offshoot of former members of the Al-Arqam sect outlawed in 1994 after its teachings were found to have deviated from Islam. It is funded by the group's restaurants, grocery stores, poultry and other businesses abroad.

Most of the 800 women who are members of the new club, including Ummu the new bride, also belong to Al-Arqam.

Expectedly, the club has faced intense criticism.

Some Malaysians started a Facebook page called "We do not want sexist nonsense from Global Ikhwan."

One Muslim man, Amirul Aftar, wrote: "I do not want a wife to submit to my every beck and call. I want a wife who understands me ... we are not your masters, we are your equal."

Women's group, Sisters in Islam, said Islam advocates marriages based on mutual cooperation and respect. It said domestic violence happens regardless of women's behavior.

"Communication, not submission, is vital to sustain any healthy relationship," it said.

really.... what the fuck????

another round of mental diarrhea

been a long time since i last cooked for more than 1 person :D it was a nice feeling seeing the other party enjoying the food :D yes, i can cook fairly well ok? :D

i m getting more and more domesticated. and that is bad. given the fact that the other party is... erm.... not really available. =.="

cant believe we've known each other for almost 10yrs already :D time flies.

is this what i want?

hmmmm......

on another note, my future lady boss started to give me assignments already. ya. she emailed me late night last night to source for hotels for the upcoming event. i am ok about it coz at least when i really start work, one part of the job will already be done :D i am still reading up on the products. tooooo wordy... toooooo wordy.... :P i foresee the hardest part is calling up ppl to participate the event. ppl who are super busy. aiyayayayaya...... what have i gotten myself into??

another source of worry is the acid attack. will be working in Bangsar and Bangsar is one of the place of attack. tiu. parking is also another issue.

but all these are minor concern. really. nothing beats getting outta this hell hole :D

MF is still an asshole. :D we exchanged emails the other day and he insulted me big time. which i lashed back at him. he reminded me how come i fell outta love with him.

he is like a fucking unstable time bomb. one moment he is so damn fucking sweet and nice and i got reminded of why i was so rakus about him and the next, he became so damn fucking obnoxious, i will to slap him a few times.

but i m seriously over him la. he still owes me money =.=" almost a year already.

Mr Unattainable is constantly in my mind and it sux. coz he is not attainable!!

why cant i get involve in a normal relationship?

Obelix is also kinda back in my life *blush* we are sort of planning a trip together. and yes, he is also unattainable. with kids.

see the bloody vicious cycle? why am i being like that?

i want to be domesticated leh. but why am i involved with ppl that i cant be domesticated with?

i wanna get married and have 2.5 kids :D*gasp* ya... me, married. kids. ya. how la? :(

wtf is wrong with my colleague??

Ms Know it all said (6:26 PM):
Finger on leave again ah?
hahaha... sure got lots of drama to hear again
Big Cow said (6:27 PM):
not funny at all
Ms Know it all says (6:27 PM):
all the problem you all have to settle it while he is away
Big Cow says (6:28 PM):
at this point of time, i feel like u are tukang api
so pls stop!
Ms Know it all says (6:28 PM):
ok ok la

Lemme state out what is wrong with this whole conversation.

1. The most obvious is, what the fuck is Ms Know it all trying to do? damn happy that shit is gonna happen issit???? why is she fucking gloating???? omg!
2. Finger is so famous for fucking up whenever he is on leave (when he is not around, all the shit he has been sitting on / suppressing will explode. every. single. fucking. time!) that even people who are not involved also know??? omg!

further to my rant below, lemme tell you something that happened to my office recently :D

about 6 months ago, my new colleague (who was with us for a mere 2 weeks) got her Honda CRV stolen just right below my office. anyway, it was weird la... we went out lunch with her driving, arrive office around 2.15pm. Then boss came back at around 4something. when the colleague left at around 8something, her car is no longer there! instead, the parking lot was taken over by boss' BMW! :O meaning to say, her CRV was stolen in a mere 2hrs!

So anyway, last Thursday, another colleague's car got stolen. This time a Waja. And the thief left their laopok (prolly stolen) honda accord behind. that colleague hasnt come to office since then coz she doesnt have any means of transportation! she quite the kesian also one.... aih... anyway, today, when we went out for lunch, we saw a group of guys fiddling with the laopok car. they claimed to be from the police force la... but they dont look like police at all! but then again, even if they are the police, i think they will just take the car away and dunno do what to it la... doubt they will even solve the case!

yes, i do not have any confident in our police force or any other government agencies at all :P

look at my boss' missing in the sea incident. activated everyone but cannot find my boss, instead it's a fishing trawler that found them. and then, they took all the credits by claiming that they are the one who found my boss! ish ish ish...

Speechless....

... is the 1st reaction i have when i read this newspaper report:

Family of murdered contractor sees red

By JOSHUA FOONG
joshuafoong@thestar.com.my

KUALA LUMPUR: The family of missing contractor Wong Fook Onn, who was found murdered on Sunday, is upset with police investigations into the case.

Wong had been missing since March 14 and his family began a search for him after lodging a police report in Subang Jaya the following day.

“We did not hear anything from the police for a few days, so I decided to do my own investigation last Friday,” Wong’s father Kim Sai told a press conference at Wisma MCA here yesterday.

“I used a spare remote control we had for my son’s blue Proton Saga that he drove to locate the missing car,” he said.

“I was driving around Taman Medan, off Old Klang Road, and by pressing the remote control found the car after its alarm went off.”

The car was found just before midnight, but he did not touch the vehicle as it was a police case.

“However, when I called the police officer assigned to my son’s case, he told me to drive the car home,” he said.

MCA Public Services and Com­plaints Department head Datuk Michael Chong, who held the press conference, said that Kim Sai refused, and spent the night by the car to ensure the evidence was untouched.

“How could he drive his son’s car home when this was a case under investigation? The police should have done a better job,” Chong said.

A police unit came at noon the next day to inspect the car and tow it away.

On Sunday, the family was alerted by a Sin Chew Daily reporter that a body was found in an abandoned house near the car. The description of the body matched that of Wong.

Kim Sai said the last person who was with Wong is believed to be a foreign worker hired for some construction work. The family could not trace the worker.

Yesterday, the family collected Wong’s remains from the Uni­versiti Hospital mortuary.

Meanwhile, Petaling Jaya OCPD Asst Comm Arjunaidi Mohamed said a forensic team had checked the car for evidence and returned it to the family.

I think hor, our Malaysian police needs to watch more CSI la. i mean, i know la, they are too stupid to really study those forensic investigation shit and their brains are not functioning fast enough, so at least la watch all the CSIs seasons la! even i also know a little bit about investigations after watching 5 fucking seasons of CSI: NY. damn fucking cipet leh! ada kepatutan ask the father to drive the fucking car away????

This reminded of the stand up comedy that minger went to watch last year. Harith Iskandar was making fun of the Malaysian CSI unit.

Scene from CSI: NY

CSI team combed the whole area and found a strand of blue string and put into the evidence bag and go thru all possible database and see who has bought these type of yarn recently from where.

Scene from CSI Malaysia:

CSI team combed the whole are and found a strand of blue string and went "Oh! tali biru!" and throws it away

:P :P :P

so damn true!!

Another one:

Scene from CSI: NY

CSI team found some tyre tracks. started to take photos of the tyre tracks and trace the tracks.

Scene from CSI Malaysia

Police just drive into the crime scene and drove over the tyre tracks

:D :D :D :D

it's funny but yet it's so damn fucking true! The police here are just sitting there getting fat and doing nothing!!

i m bursting with glee now and yet i am feeling a tad guilty for the source of gleefulness. i need my bitching buddies!!! :D

i miss ifer a lot. i've been thinking about her lately. even sent her a message via facebook. but i m very sure she will not reply at all. it was raining heavily yesterday and my mind was brought back to the college days. how silly we were playing under the rain trying to get sick coz we didnt study for our calculus test the next day and we knew we were doomed :P so we came up with a silly idea. let's get sick. let's play under the rain! so she changed into her bikini and i wore my nightie and we sat at the carpark and talk and laughed at our silliness :D. we even walked the whole apartment area with ppl whistling at us or looking at us weirdly :D then she needed to get cigarettes and we walked to the nearby 24hr shop to buy. we knew the uncle well and on the way there, we were giggling and wondering wat's the uncle's reaction gonna be. but he was very cool about it. as if like it's normal for 2 crazy girls to be soaked wet in nighties and bikini walking into his shop at 4am in the morning getting cigarettes :D :D :D :D then there's another time where minger and ifer suddenly wish to eat American moist chocolate cake from Baker's Cottage - at 8am in the morning. We were hanging out the whole night at our balcony talking nonsense and drinking beer and singing songs (yes, we were really a nuisance then) until 7am so that we can have our favourite wantan mee :D after breakfast, they needed desserts and Baker's Cottage was opened already. And somehow, in our crazy mindset, in order to buy a cake, we needed a birthday person. So we started to think, whose bday was around the corner? and we realized Juju's bday was 2 weeks away. So we bought the cake, went home all giggly at our silliness, knocked on Juju's door and wake her and Babi up and forced Juju to blow the candles. You should see their tulan and yet cant show tulan-ness face :D after Juju blow the candles, we shoo them back to sleep so that Minger and Ifer can eat the cake :D looking back, i seriously think we have really amazing and patience housemates :D coz if anyone did that to me, i will just smash the bloody cake at their face and go back to sleep :P so yea.... i miss ifer. we really had a lot of funny childish time together. :(

i am waiting for obelix, the ex that got away, to come online :D he is the next best bitching buddy :D just called him, he is busy today. ask to me to keep it till tomorrow and we will bitch all i want :D

small cow is currently unavailable. i think she is having her down time now. so ya.....

minger lagi unavailable. she has bosses from hell!!

i am ok..... i will be ok :D

i was super emo last night and it got worst this morning when i realized i misplaced my phone.

i was in super self loathing mode. i hate myself so much that i wish i could die in a horrible death.

but i m beginning to really get sick of this feeling i am having. so what he is currently labeled as the love of my life and he doesn't reciprocate? life still move on leh. i m still fucking breathing. the birds are still fucking chirping happily outside. the sun is still shinning brightly and i m in no way dying from any horrible death. although self termination is seriously very tempting at this moment. but no la. i still got a lot of things to do and say and eat and see leh. maybe i m masochist in a way la... coz i would love to go into the drug scene again. really really really wish. a friend asked me last night why am i in self destructive mode? why do i wanna cheapen myself for things that i want to do? and i asked him back, how to cheapen when there is no value at all?

this is a ranting and most likely illogical sounding post. i know. it doesnt really make sense. i know. coz i dont make sense at all.

i just know i m angry with myself. angry for being such a wuss, angry for getting myself into this predicament.

so i m gonna move on. if 2012 is really coming to reality, life is too fucking short to wallow. i wanna do what i wanna do. i wanna live life to the fullest and be more selfish and self centred and try to love myself for once. that's something i've not done before! oh oh... and i wanna have lesbian sex! :D :D :D :D :D and maybe another try at 3some :D :D :D :D :D :D

p/s: no, the love of my life is not an asshole. he made it very clear that he aint interested from the start. it's all my own doing :D

weird things always happens... (full pledge rant - skip it if u are not interested in my complains)

... to me when i am alone!!!!


i m quite sure you all will be asking:

what now?

dont worry, i'll tell you!!!!

things hasnt been going as planned from the moment i step outta my house today! i washed my car yesterday and it started to rain whole afternoon until now. not only that, stupid grass cutters dunno why so damn fucking rajin decided to cut grass on a rainy day and my car got covered with cut grass!!! nia ma!!!

then when i arrived cineleisure, wanting to color my hair, the place is not opened yet. so i walked over to the flea market to get the thing i wanna get. but because it's raining, the stall were already set up nicely but covered by a sheet of plastic and the stall owner is no where to be found!!! so i like a so hai waited for almost 3 hours and the bloody rain didnt stop!!!

so i drove over to tesco coz minger wanted me to help her buy more beer. got stuck in the bloody jam in the carpark. and when i saw a car coming out, i put my signal, went in front, so that i can reverse park, a bloody car behind decided to steal the space!!! i was by then pretty frustrated, in fact, i was already raging inside. i stopped the car and went down to confront the driver. (yes, i m getting the hang of public confrontations, it seems =.=" i guess the NKVE shell incident unleashed the public confrontation self in me - wait... did i blog about that? no? next time la) but i lost the confrontation la... coz i malas to quarrel too long. not long later, i found another parking which is nearer to the entrance. ok la. i calmed down a bit. i went up to tesco to the cheap beer place and no one was at the island of hundreds of cartons of beers. so i mah park my trolley next to the island and called minger to confirm the quantity needed. next thing i know, some asshole uncle used his fucking trolley to bang my butt and asked me rudely if i m getting the beer. i was being already fucking annoyed with the whole day's situation, and i told him in a boh song's tone, yes, i m getting. and i told him there are space the other side, why need to bang me??? and then he didnt move and i didnt care la, still trying to call minger, then that asshole bang me again and rudely shouted at me to not block him. that really pissed me off big time and i started to scold him to fuck off and if he wants beer, just fucking get it and stop banging me! and then he started to act all high and mighty saying that i m so unladylike to use vulgarities. harlow???? do i need to be polite to an asshole??? so we quarreled. and i pushed my trolley behind him to bang him and asked him if he likes it. - ya, i went crazy. really creally crazy. but i really beh tahan lor. i mean if there are alot of ppl at that island and i m taking up the space until he cannot grab his beer, i understand la. but harlow??? there's NOFUCKINGBODY THERE!!!! how not to be angry??? bang me for what???????

after getting the stuffs, i went to the check out counter and the stupid african lady in front of me pulak pisses me off. she took like 5 packets of potato buns and paid. then next thing we know, she just walked back without her bun and money, making the cashier unable to check out my stuffs! like wtf??? not only that, when she came back with MORE packets of potato buns, she continue to hold up the queue dunno doing what until i cannot push my trolley out to collect the barang!!! like wtf is wrong with these ppl wei??????

then i decided to drive over to the curve to try my luck at the flea market again. but it's still not open!!! damn tulan leh.... wasted whole morning for nothing!!!

so ya... i m in an extremely pissy mood now!!!!!!!!!!!!

a planned trip...

i m really hopeless in blogging now. i cant find the time nor inspiration to blog anymore.

found some singapore ex-colleagues on facebook and after a few exchanges, i've planned a short trip to singapore this cny :D

i was pretty excited about this whole singapore trip until just now. and now i m super stressed.

you see, altho our team was really close on the surface, there were some dissatisfaction among the team mates. on one group will be the team leader and her 'pets' and another will be Ms S and friends. where do i fall? both category. actually the feud is between Ms S and the team leader. Somehow their 'ba zi' not ngam la. they just dislikes each other.

but at towards the end, i realized Ms S was the problem one. she is the queen of manipulative and a user. i was used to knit a dress for her daughter. altho everyone around me was telling me that i was being stupid. my thought then was it's ok, at least i learn knitting ma.... but towards the end, i did feel like i kena used la..but i dont remember why i feel that way. could be her behavior or her tone.

then the biggest betrayal was... erm.. forget it. dont really wanna go in depth but i was really hurt la... and that incident prompted me to come back to malaysia for good.

so anyway, 12yrs have passed and i've moved on - and i've added them in my FB. i actually did forgot about Ms S's characteristic. and i was looking back at the good old days with a rose-tinted glasses.

last nite, Ms Chewing Gum (whom i was also really close to, who was from the team leader's side) called me and we chatted for almost an hour. she told me how Ms. S used the team leader's friendship to betray her to the extend that the team lead decided to cut off all ties with ms s once and for all (apparently a first for the team leader)

so the plan was, on the 1st day of my trip, i will be going over to the team leader's house for gathering and meet up with a whole bunch of ex colleagues whom i've not seen for 12yrs - which i m really excited. and ms s is conspicuously not invited. which i was fine with me. until... ms s sent me a msg via fb asking me to meet. at first i was ok la, since i know the 2nd day i m planning to meet with another ex colleague who, most likely cannot make to the team leader's house for the gathering, whom is ok with ms s. so i dont mind meeting la. but ms s has other plans. she expect me to spend the whole day with her - which i m honestly not comfortable with. and asked me over to her house and meet her kids and then go out jalan jalan. i politely told her due to the short time i m gonna be in singapore, i prefer to utilize my time better by meeting more ppl. then she retorted that i will be meeting most of them at the team leader's house anyway. why cant i meet her alone the next day? i didnt know wat to answer. the real answer in my head was: "i dont wanna waste so much of my time with you, bitch! you were afterall the one who betrayed me and hurt me the most!" but instead, i explained to her again how short my stay in singapore is. and then she asked why did i plan such short trip. which honestly speaking, kinda irks me. so i told her no money la - in a very diplomatic way la... talking about exchange rates not in my favour and bla bla bla (apparently i can be diplomatic when pushed to a corner! =.=")

she didnt reply me after that.

here's the feeling i've identify over this whole episode:

1. sibeh stress ah! why human relationships so damn fucking complicated la? why la she wanna make things so complicated la?

2. guilty for taking side. this is the feeling i always had since last time. coz i always feel like i m torn between 2 people. so this time round, i choose to go over to team leader's house, somehow from the email exchange, i feel guilty. as if like i've chosen side. she make it seems like she so pitiful. like everyone is ostracizing her. maybe they are la... but then again, if she has not done anything wrong, will they behave that way? apparently even her those close friends from her side do not keep contact with her anymore and they are still in contact with the team leader (yea, actually her close friends all also ok with the team leaders one) and they will be going over for the gathering too! so ya lor, she send me pm asking to meet me alone and when i suggest her to invite more ppl, she make it seems like she has no more friends and if i dont meet her alone, she will be destined to be alone for the rest of her life (i m over dramatizing - but it's something like this la)

3. angry. angry that she is manipulating my 'easily get guilty' feeling all over again and act like the kelian one. angry that she actually ignited my unwanted angry and sad memories of her betraying me. angry that apparently i have not let go and have not moved on. angry that i dont know how to tell her, now, that i really dont wanna meet her anymore.

4. irritated. irritated that she is still that secretive. she is always wanting to know everyone's business but refuse to divulge her own things. like she asked me how's life, where am i located, what am i working as, which company am i working for. and when i replied and asked her back, she will change subject. like wtf??

so ya... from a very happy looking forward to this trip thingie, i suddenly lost one or 2 of the excited bubbles =.="

but i am still looking forward to meet the rest of the ppl la and explore around singapore and eat all the yummy local delights :D

i've sort of make up my mind not to meet her already - actually :D. we've not exchanged any phone numbers so i can just conveniently forget about it :D

i would love to go back to the old places i used to go when i was there. so most likely i will spend the whole day exploring myself :D

places that i wanna go:
1. changi airport - the place that i used to work. too bad i dont have the pass to walk around the transit area :D
2. bugis junction / century square / tampines mall / orchard area - i have to choose one la.. coz i know it's highly impossible to go all these places in mere 1 day :D
3. clarke quay
4. changi village
5. bedok / tampines / pasir ris (quite doable since team leader's place is in tampines)

food that i wanna eat:
1. chwee kueh
2. indian rojak
3. orh chien
4. popiah
5. chicken rice
6. nasi lemak
7. hokkien mee
8. yu tiao panggang and dipped with rojak sauce
9. soto
10. malay mix rice
11. tahu telor
12. singapore subway

fuck... i knw i cannot have it all :(

no, altho i m going with minger and her bf and staying in the same hotel, i doubt we will hang out in singapore together at all :D maybe will meet them go drinking at night la. :D

ranting

so much in my head. gonna burst soon!!

1. hate it when ppl faced with a very simple yes or no question and they over think and think that there's seeham disebalik kuay teow or something and answer the question with another question or gimme crap answers like maybe, i dont know, i m not sure. harlow?? yes means yes! no means no! make up your fucking mind can or not??

2. some ppl have so much bitterness inside themselves that they cant stand other ppl being happy. they are that kind of person who brings a needle everywhere they go so that they can pop everyone's happiness bubbles whereever they go.

3. i dont know how many times i've said this before, and i will say it again. i seriously think that ppl who born in one particular year is the most illogical species ever! except ifer la. all of them have the same trait, illogical, fickle minded, bitter, thinks that the whole fucking world owes them something and are all trying to get on my nerves. you'd be surprise how many of these ppl are around me and i think i am just gonna go slit my wrist and die or something to get the hell out of them! seriously. every single one of them that i've met are like that. something went wrong in that year issit? nia ma

4. when you treat me nice, i acknowledge it by being doubly nice to you. but that does not i m a fucking welcome mat that you can fucking step all over! and no, i dont have patience for such attitude. so dont blame me for cutting ties.

5. it is very obvious that they are guilty of their bitchiness or they are really a bunch of attention seeking nobodies that's why they need to troll on others and get all perasan over others entries.

6. money cannot buy everything. honestly. i was really down last nite over many incidents that happened yesterday and someone msg me via fb asking me if i need help and if there is anything they can do. by that they mean if i need to borrow money. harlow, money is not the only problem in this world. can dont be so shallow? and i dont need your help coz i know you guys will be bitching about helping for the rest of my life. once bitten twice shy. so no, i dont need these hypocritical help. thank you very much.

7. work is getting worst each day. i kept on asking myself why the fuck am i still here working with bunch of selfish political idiots. the social situation in the office is so damn bad until everyone wants to stab everyone on the back. either that, or there's this tidak apa attitude. cargo damage? it's ok la. customer is dropping us? it's ok la. customer needs the job to be done urgently? ok la, i will get it done in 10yrs time. conclusion? i get fucking left right centre by customers. it's getting really frustrating to be blamed for things that i am not able to control.

8. i do not like to be approached for advise when you clearly already made up your mind. seriously, why do u even bother wasting our time, breath and saliva?

9. respect is something you need to earned and not forced upon. you have done so many stupid idiotic unethical things around us and you are forcing people to respect you?? please la, go look at urself in the mirror and see what is there to be respect?? now u are claiming that ppl 'no big no small' u very big meh? i dont think so lor.... *ptui*

wtf??

apparently being an anti social is a crime and that it is interpreted as attention seeking. like wtf???? the reason i wanna be anti social is so that people can just leave me be!!

really wtf!

Ms Disgusting....

... is a new name it's christened a certain colleague of mine. Why? you may asked. Here are the 3 cases:

Case #1

Supplier came over to bring us out for lunch. We all went and ordered our set lunch. Normal, right? Nope, not when Ms Disgusting is around! What did she do? She ordered the MOST EXPENSIVE set lunch (some steak - EVENTHO she dont like beef) and ordered 2 desserts. But that's not enough for her! She also ordered extra set to go. When we asked her who is she buying it for, she said it's for her dinner..... =.=" yep.... she did that!!!

Case #2

Company's trip + annual dinner. She proclaimed from the start she wont participate. But when the bosses announced the grand prize as 32" LCD tv, she changed her tone. telling us she wanna go, but dont wanna go, but wanna go.... shut the fuck up, bitch! wanna go, go, dont wanna go, just fuck of!! anyway, on the day of the trip, she did not answer the phone and we left without her. then around 5pm, she called up to announced that she will be joining us for the dinner (knowing very well that the lucky draw is that night) which actually disgust us and the bosses so much that the Big Boss decided to twist the lucky draw by separating it to 2 events. The main draw will happen the next day. Of coz Ms Disgusting didnt know la. She came right before we started the lucky draw with her daughter and husband. Didn't even bother to take food or drinks. once she got her prize (everyone is confirmed to have a prize one), she told Big Boss that she wants to go back. Which prompted him to be super pissed and told her off that she will have to stay till the event is over. Yes, she is that thick skinned!

Case #3

Every year, the Malay colleagues will choose a day during the Raya month to bring food over for 'house warming'.The reason being that most of them stays very far away. They might as well group up together and bring food so that they can share the cost. It's all planned by them and we non Malay are just happy to have the food and enjoy :D So anyway, 2 days ago, she suddenly went on a huge bitching mode. Raising her voice and bitching to another colleague of how broke she is and she dont wanna bring food for us to eat. and if we wanna eat, we should pay her or better yet, get the bosses to give them money to prepare these food. she also say that we are very 'menyusahkan' (troublesome) for wanting an open house. at first, i was pretty amused with her stupid mentality. then it got on me. coz she repeated her bitching for non stop WHOLE FUCKING DAY in a fucking loud voice. it's very obvious she wants everyone to hear her and i think she was seeking for support or something. but the thing is, we never even request for this open house thing! if she dont wanna do it, or cannot afford to do it, JUST DONT FUCKING DO IT! we will not starved to death, ok?? her ranting and bitching makes me feel like we are some kinda beggars begging to eat her food! So anyway, i voiced out my displeasure to another Malay colleague who is sitting in another room. and she was shocked. she told me that the rest of the malay colleagues are already planning to hold this open house thingie next week and they dont mind coz it's all about spreading joy to everyone thru food ma! Honestly, if you know you cannot afford it and you already told the whole world you cannot afford it, then just fucking dont do it la. why so berdrama-drama for???? what is her whole purpose of this drama la? she seems like she enjoy making people upset!!!

Case #4

So, the next day after the above mentioned drama, she called a supplier to talk business then next thing we know, she asked the supplier make an open house for her. and she specifically requested for lemang, ketupat, rendang ayam.... and god knows what la. No, i m not that kaypoh to eavesdrop her. she has a built in loudspeaker in her vocal cord. i got disgusted all over again. who is the one who drama drama the previous day about having to provide food for open house? then next day, she got the cheek to ask from a supplier??? fucking thick skinned and hypocritical, no??

Case #5

This one i didnt see it with my own eyes la. End of last year, Big Boss mom passed away. And the bosses brought over some fruits that were offered to the funeral rites thingie. when she 1st found out, she was voicing her displeasure that the muslims cannot eat these kinda thing. so fine lor. we non muslims and non pantang ppl eat lor. no big deal ma. but apparently, one of my colleague saw her standing by the fridge at the pantry cramming one of the fruit into her mouth suspiciously and quickly... like scared kena tangkap (get caught)!! like wtf??? why la wanna be so hypocritical????

Case #6

She is fucking rude. As said, she has a fucking built in loudspeaker. and she loves to screamed at our names when she wanted to ask something. like her hands are broken, cannot pick up the phone to intercom us like that! somemore the way she screamed our names is like she found out we have done something wrong and wanted to reprimand us! but no! that's not even the case! most of the time she screamed at our names to seek favour from us!!!! there was once, i lost my cool and i totally ignored her screaming my name. she screamed about 3 times and i still refused to acknowledge her. she came over to my cubicle and asked me: Engko pekak ke apa??? (are you deaf or wat??) and i just told her: if you want to speak to me, speak to me nicely. dont shout here and there! learn to talk nicely 1st before you talk to me!! and then i continue to do my work and ignore her. of coz that pisses her off big time la. and she complained to the bosses and i just told the bosses what happened. and she got reprimanded :D

that's all the stories i have la... i am sure others also got other stories about her but these are enough to make me avoid talking to her completely if it's not about work!

wtf is wrong with this world??

just read a newspaper report on this 2 guys... aiyah.... let u read for urself la...

Two men held over rape of at least five minors

By STEVEN CHIEW
chiewcc@thestar.com.my

KUALA LUMPUR: Two men who allegedly befriended schoolchildren before raping them have had their re­­mands extended. More victims are expected to come forward to re­­port the sexual abuse by them.

The tow-truck driver and a labourer live in the same apartment block in Ampang. They had allegedly raped more than five girls, aged between 12 and 14, in the past one month.

It is learnt that the men in their 30s, would separately stalk the girls at schools before approaching them and sweet talking them with an offer to buy them meals before sending them home.
In remand: The suspects were arrested separately at their homes on July 13 and July 14.

Once they had gained the trust of the girls, they persuaded them to hop into their car for a spin.

The girls would then be taken to either of the suspects’ home where they were raped.

It is learnt that the two men would often “swap” girls.

The victims were paid between RM50 and RM300 to silence them.

Police said the two men selected their victims and took a few days to get to know them before making a move.

Their evil acts were exposed when a neighbour of one of the suspects recognised one of the victims and informed her family.

Ampang Jaya police chief Asst Comm Abdul Jalil Hassan said police arrested the men separately at their homes on July 13 and July 14.

The arrests were made after police received the first police report on July 12. So far, police have received five reports.

ACP Abdul Jalil said police were expecting more victims to come forward soon.

Both men have been remanded until July 26 for investigation under Section 376 of the Penal Code for rape.

Last month, police arrested a 54-year-old taxi driver, also from Ampang, and his 18-year-old accomplice who preyed on teenage school girls and kept them as sex slaves.

Police arrested the suspect at a taxi stand in Jalan Imbi following police reports by three teenage girls that he had raped them and kept them as sex slaves for almost a year.

The taxi driver was reported to have preyed on at least six secondary school girls aged between 15 and 17.

how come i m reading more and more disturbing news on guys preying on school girls? what is wrong with the society?? the victims are only 12-14yrs old wei! just last month the news of the serial cab rapist surfaced. then this month these 2 animal came out headline. does it mean that next month there will be another serial rapist exposure???

honestly speaking, i think the govt should pass a law to castrate the rapists.

i really need to stop reading newspaper. every time i read the news, it's either murder, rapes, accident, price increased, natural disaster or political parties creating drama to get more attention.

gimme some good news already!

Wah Lau Gang - Dancing with Ah Lian

just talked to someone in Singapore and she sounded exactly like the Ah Lian in this Mp3. like seriously. very the annoying. but this mp3 is funny la :P

1 question. how come the newspaper pixelate the rapist cab driver's yong sui face but the tv is openingly showing his face leh?

i think he will be beating and tortured like mad when he masuk jail wei. he might get gang raped :P

but seriously speaking. he is damn sicko lor. what is even more sicko is his accomplice is actually an 18yrs old girl. like wtf? ok la.. her parents claimed that she was an unwilling party (erm.. does this mean that the parents actually know of these activities and not do anything about it???) but still, she should do something about it right? i mean ppl should know how to differentiate between right and wrong leh...

knnccb...

everyday read newspaper also got disturbing news.

thoughts that needs to be purge outta my brains...

call me cynical if you want. but that boy giving a press conference about the shooting of his friend sounded damn fishy. he looked too calmed having his friend died on his lap and he looked like he has been memorizing his script. and i think he is being paid by someone to politicize the whole thing.

also issit me or raping cases are getting more and more rampant? issit becoz of the easily accessible porn in the internet that trigger those sex maniacs to behave like that? maybe before easily available porn, they are able to control themselves.... but now cannot coz watch too much porn? and no, i dont believe it's the victim's fault if she dress sexily.

also, it feels as if like the 2012 prophecy is coming true? so many earthquakes for the past few months! are we all gonna die then? :D if we are, what's the whole bloody purpose of our existence?? i mean like harlow? live until 36 yrs old achieve nothing, then die coz end of the world. or live life to the fullest doing all kinda things and then die. so do all those things for what? still will die what. so the reason / purpose of us living is....??

new sandiwara is happening from an old nemesis. we are monitoring her closely.

after living for 33+ years i've finally tasted sri lankan crab. i can die in peace now. niama, it's fucking good wei! the meat is damn padat lor! definitely gonna eat it again soon!

i have ran outta steam. bye.

nope, writing things out when i m pissed is not working. it causes me to be even more pissed.

i m no man, in the 'no man is an island'. i m an island and seriously speaking i really really hate human relationships.

familiarity breeds contempt.

Hijackers! Intruders!

I m feeling increasingly annoyed and unhappy over the intruders in my life. I know no man is an island. But i m no man! Anyway, i cannot believe there are ppl who are so thick skinned who can't get the hint that they are not fucking welcome in my life and world lor! I was so aghast that they have the cheek to wanna hijack my plan yet again! I mean, harlow?! Like u haven't ruin my melaka get away enough, u wanna come and ruin my vacation?! Some more with the intention of wanting us to pay for your fucking trip?! Who the fuck do u think u are? I already politely tell you no, but u must come and throw urself at my plan?! Pls la, u say u r ok with just lying on the beach all day, i don't believe lor! U r a fucking datin, u need 5 stars hotels and not the kampung environment that we r going to lor! Just like the fucking melaka trip! U say u r ok with our plans, but when we arrived there, we didn't get to do a single thing we plan to we wanted to do! It's all your wants! So i can fucking foresee if u come to our vacay u will hijack it and make it to all about u! So, no! You r fucking not welcome!!! And i know u fucking read this. Read la! Like i give a fucking damn?!