money...

... (the lack of it) doesnt make me depressed. that"s what i've realized recently. i've been in debts and depression for so long that i always thought that my depression is somewhat triggered by the lack of money. but no leh. i m debt freenow with a lil excess and i realized i m more depressed than ever.

the thoughts of killing myself is getting stronger. i seriously hate my job. my life. my everything.

i m so sad :-(