paranoia strikes. cant shake the feeling. i m so damn fucking scared. if the scenario i m dreading really became a reality, i will definitely kill myself. i mean it.

they say it's highly improbable. but the world is too damn fucking small. even if there is a 0.000000001% chance of it happening, it will happen. why? coz i m the murphy's bitch.

i need to go home and cry now.